my love- e.s. + l.b

3.

all night i was tossing and turning. i was thinking about it all night. how i would say it. how i would put it in words. i finally got a few minutes of sleep before emily shook me.

"lilia, wake up! it's your first official day here! we have to make it so much fun!" she smiled and giggled looking at me as i opened my eyes.

i didn't know it was possible to be as perfect as emily. i didn't know it was possible to fall in love in less than a day either. but, here we are. i had to tell her what was on my mind. not now, but soon.

i got up, showered, and put on a white shirt and tucked it into my favorite green pants. i didn't want to dress too warm or too cool. so i compromised. i brushed my teeth and plugged in my curling iron. annie was still asleep, i could hear her snoring. emily was putting on makeup beside of me. she didn't need it. her face is so perfect. 

"you don't need it." i said through a toothbrush and toothpaste. she twisted the cap on her mascara.

"don't need what?" she said and continued to apply it. the way her lips parted when she did it to make sure she applied it perfectly made the butterflies in my stomach go wild. i cleared my throat.

"makeup. you're beautiful without it." i said blushing quite a bit. she smiles and blushed. she blushed!

"thank you, lils...hey, do you think you could curl my hair?i mean, i could do it, and i totally would but i...i don't...trust myself with a curling iron...?"  i could tell she was lying, but i wanted to do it, so i didn't point it out.

"of course! loose curls or tight curls?" i asked. she pondered the thought in her head for a few seconds.

"whatever you think looks best!" she said and smiled at me while she put up her makeup.

"anything would look great on you." i said.

i stared to curl her hair. her hair was a perfect blonde color. almost platinum, but not quite. it was so soft. i sprayed some hairspray over the curls and curled my own. after we were finished, she took my hand and we ran out of the school dorms.

i felt free with her. like i could be anything and anyone i wanted to with her. but then that uneasy, sick feeling cut in. i remembered i had to tell her sometime. we ended up at the mall in front of the ice cream shop called Silver Spoon.

"hello, welcome to Silver Spoon! can we unrest you in our double fudge split?" a girl looked up. she had short blonde hair and it was curled. 

emily ordered a strawberry cone with a cherry on top, and i ordered the same. she wouldn't let me pay, so she handed the girl her card. we sat at a table and started to eat our ice cream. if i  was going to tell her, what a better time than now?

"hey, emily? can i talk to you about something?" i said and tapped my foot nervously and my hands started to shake.

she put her hand over mine.

"of course, you can tell me anything." she smiled and lightly rubbed my hand. the sympathetic look in her eyes just calmed me down and i took a deep breath.

"i think i'm...bisexual. when i heard you say that yesterday, it got me thinking. there's a girl that i really like. i mean, really, really like. she makes me so nervous and she is so cute but i've only known her for a short amount of time. i couldn't sleep last night thinking about how i would say this. but i've has a boyfriend before named jaeden and i felt the same connection i do with this girl, but with this girl, it's stronger? i don't know. it's just confusing."

emily got up and pulled me up with her and embraced me with a tight hug. 

"thank you for sharing, lils. you're so strong. looks like we're in the same situation, now." she said and pulled away.

she smiled and kisses my cheek.

"don't worry, we'll be just fine. now tell me about this girl." she said and we walked out of the shop holding hands.

"well, like i've said i've only known her for a while. she has such a cute smile and a beautiful, beautiful heart. she makes me feel so nervous and she makes me blush with every little thing she does. i think she's the one, but i don't know if she likes me." i said and kept my head down.

"you never know, lilia. you should just tell her you like her. what's the worst that could happen!" she said.

"i guess you're right. but i think i should wait. until the time is right, of course." i said as we left the mall.

around thrity minutes later, we arrived at the roller skating rink. i'd never roller skated before so i was pretty nervous. but i didn't show it. we got our skates and headed for the rink. no one else was there.

"you ever done this before?" she asked as she held my hand taking me onto the rink.

"no, actually. i never had the time to get used to a town before." i said as a tried to roll.

"it's a lot of fun i swear. you'll get the hang of it!" she said.

she was teaching me how to glide when i fell, dragging her on top of me. we both were laughing and then we stopped and i noticed the position i had gotten myself in and i looked into her eyes. our faces got closer and i could feel her breath in my face.

our lips connected.