BlackVelvet »irene × lisa« ✔

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"If only I could slap you right now. I would've. But I'm stopping myself for the sake of you as a friend. But hurting my sister like this is definitely No Manoban. I'm itching myself to drag you out of here and damn talk to my sister!"

Jennie. That's obviously her voice.

She's in my house again, for the third time this week. I mean, she's been doing this every now and then. Showing herself in my house. Nag over and over again then left me with thousand of words essay she prepared to slap to my face.

Finals had ended. Days passed so fast that it'll only be two weeks before graduation. And I'm proud to say I'm doing well. I'm really doing well though.

I can eat on time. Sleep on time. Have a spare hours to study and hang out with friends sometimes.

It became my routine.

And it's getting boring day by day.

Irene was there. Just looking afar. I know she still care and constantly checking me out but she never tried to approach me. Well for me, I don't want her too. She's doing good to be honest.

I don't want to rely on her presence anymore. So I have this routine in my head for each day. After class, instead in library, I'll have my book in the gym. Just waiting for my practices to start while I tried to study.

The process of breaking up wasn't easy.
But here I am, still surviving without her. I'm still sane to think though. I do still think about her a lot.

During at night, I still found myself crying on my pillow sleeping with wet tears on and waking up with huge eye bags.

It wasn't easy. But I tried.

Now that the days I'm seeing her is withing weeks, I don't know if I'm ready. Ready to wake up knowing she wasn't around anymore. Waking up that I couldn't take even a glimpse of her.

Waking up completely without her.

"Her graduation day Lis! I'm asking you as a friend to show your face there." Jennie continued to say. I'm still in my bed covering my whole face with my blanket pretending that I'm still asleep.

I've heard her parents weren't coming and it's just Jennie who'll be with her on that special day. Of course her friends would be there but when it comes to blood related family, it'll be only Jennie.

She got Wendy and Seulgi anyway. I'm sure Jisoo and Joy would show up too. Why should I show myself? Knowing after  mini celebration, she'll have her flight.

Cruel isn't it?

"I can't promise Jen." I mumbled growling as if the special day is nothing.

"If you can't, then atleast get up there and go with me in our house. Advance celebration will happen today. We know she would love to see you to the last party she'll have."

"Not in mood."

"Lisa... I know you're hurt. But can you stop being selfish for this time? Irene was badly hurt too. Specially when you cut the tie between you both."

"The break up was the best thing decision I made."

"Then as a friend! As a fucking friend show yourself!" Jennie had enough of my bullshit and just wanted to show myself there. "Please Lisa, atleast do this for her.."

I wish I could say yes.

I really do.

But god knows I can't.