Not Perfect - a 1D fanfic

CHAPTER 5

It's the next day and I am sitting alone. Why? What caused me to be anti-social? Then it hits me, my hatered for everyone. After having gone through the troubles, I had gotten built up with this hatered for everyone. I used to feel that everyone is cruel and I still kind of do. But I just can't sit here and let people know how depressed I am. I don't want them to pity me. So, I get up and go to this group.

"Hi", I say and despite of being anti-social I wasn't VERY shy and nervous although you would expect that, won't you?

"Heyyyy", they reply.

"Can I join you guys?", I ask.

"Yeah", one girl replies.

"Why not?", one of them says.

There, for the first time in high school, I am not anti-social.

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It's biology now and we are supposed to go to the lab. I pick up my books and try to catch up with this girl, someone to start a conversation with. But someone bumps into me.

"Omg, sorry!", Harry exlaims.

"Oh, hi!", I laugh, "it's okay".

He smiles.

"Okay, bye!", he says.

And I notice something. Harry wears a lot of bracelets and as he puts his hand up, two of his bracelets slip down and I see marks. But it all happens really quick and I don't get to ask Harry about it.

Had he cut himslef on the wrist?

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This period is taking too long to end, I can't wait for the morning break. I need to ask Harry about his cut. How DARE he not tell me? Am I not his friend? Doesn't he trust Zayn and I? Or is it that Zayn knows but hasn't told me? My brain is messed up.

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It's break and I hurry downstairs because I am already very late. I spot Zayn and Harry and sit with them.

"Hey! Someone's early!", Harry says, sarcastically.

"Hey! I am sorry!", I apologise, "our teacher wasn't letting us go."

"Yeah, it's fine", Zayn says.

When should I talk about Harry's cuts? Now? Well, yeah, I will have to later, anyway.

"Um....Harry?", I say,"can you show me your bracelets? I wanna try 'em on, they seem pretty cool."

He looks at his bracelets for a few seconds, hesitating.

"He doesn't give his bracelets to anyone", Zayn tells me.

So ZAYN knows about what the problem is??

"Why are YOU hiding it from me, too Zayn?", I demand. I don't sound too angry, though I want to.

"What?", Zayn asks, surprised.

"About Harry's cuts", I say.

I see Harry staring at me with wide eyes.

"His cuts??", Zayn asks, very surprised.

"Marks on his wrists", I say.

"WHAT??", Zayn asks.

Right, he didn't know? As if.

"You don't know?", I ask, ' then why did you say that he doesn't give his bracelets to anyone so I couldn't see the cuts?"

"No", Zayn says,"like, I have asked him, but he never gives me! Harry, you got cuts?"