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"I cant lose you"

Post Endgame but Tony didn't die! Yay!
TW: depression, suicidal thoughts

Peter POV

I can't do anything right. I think to myself and look down at the city beneath me. I'm sitting on top of a tall skyscraper, my legs dangling over the side. I sniffles and wraps my arms around my stomach. It's colder than I thought it would be on an August night.

I'm still in the SpiderMan suit but took the mask off, now sitting beside me. Tears stream down my face as I stares at my feet swinging in the wind. Life is so hard. My parents are dead, then Ben and now... May. I can't believe my entire family is gone. I have nothing left. Ned hardly talks to me anymore cause he's too busy with Betty all the time. And MJ broke up with me last week.

Sobs shake through my body and I clasp a hand over my mouth to muffle the noise, not that anyone would hear me anyway. Not that anyone would care anyway. Not that I mean anything to anyone anymore. Everyone that cares about me is dead, or they forgot about me. Tony Stark only wants me for SpiderMan and couldn't give less of a shit about me.

I look at my phone and see it's 4:37am. How long have I been up here? I look down again before closing my eyes and taking a deep breath. I'm going to do this. Then I'll be with the people who care about me. I open my text app and send the same message to Ned, MJ, and Mr Stark.

Peter:
I'm sorry but I can't keep going on like this. Bury me in blue.

I hit send and look out at the beautiful New York skyline. I feel my phone buzz in my hand and see the caller ID says Tony Stark. I hit decline and look out at the city again. My phone rings again and I try to hit decline again but my hands are so shakey I accidentally answer. I don't say anything.

"Pete? Are you there?" Tony's voice sounds tired and nervous at the same time. I probably woke him up.

"Mhm." I hum in response, I don't feel like talking right now. I want to hang up but know he'd just call back. I should have jumped immediately after the text.

"So, Uh, what's up?" He asks. Ugh he's trying to be casual and not freak me out.

"Mr Stark, you know what's up." I say in a grumbly voice, I hadn't used it in hours. Why is he trying to hide the fact that the only reason he called me is cause he knows what I'm about to do.

"Why are you doing this?" I hear this voice break and I cringe slightly. I didn't think he'd care this much. "I care about you so much, Pete." He sounds like he's trying to be reassuring but also like he's on the verge of a breakdown. I'm already in the middle of one.

"A few days ago May was in an accident and she died today in the hospital." I whisper and look back down at the ground, 40 stories below me.

"Why didn't you tell me about this? Pete, I love you so mu-"

"You're making this hard, Mr Stark please stop talking." I say. I don't want to hear all of his 'I care about you' and 'please stop before someone irreversible happens' shit. It's all cause he just wants SpiderMan, he doesn't give 2 shits about Peter Parker.

"I'm trying to make this hard, Peter! I don't want you to die!" He shouts and I flinch from the anger and sadness in his loud voice.

"You don't want SpiderMan to die." I mumble to myself, not thinking he can hear me.

"Peter, I swear to god if you think I only care about SpiderMan and not you then you're a lot dumber than you look. I love you, Pete. I see you as a son!" I crinkle my nose and try to stop the tears from coming even harder.