I don't really know if any of you still pay attention to this inconsistent book of mine, but here I am... again. I'm just going to come out and say it: after almost a year, I have been so unmotivated to do anything. I literally don't want to do anything, so my drawing has been to a limit, and my writing has almost been nonexistent. I kind of put myself in a serious situation almost a year ago in mid-September, and since then, I haven't really been the same person. I've been so tired. I don't know. Some of you, maybe two or three, know what happened, but it's weird. (I think it's Seb and Devin or something. Hi, guys). But, long story short, since I haven't been here, I kind of want to give you guys an update on what's been going on. If you are here for the art, I have a redraw. Just scroll down to where it is. Idk.
Okay so I don't know how many of you know this, because I deleted the chapters to which I talked about this, but my father has been abusive to me and my family since maybe the early 2000's all the way to maybe 2017/2018. And when I was posting about it, things weren't that bad. I mean, I was hiding some things back, like how I was my father's scapegoat to his frustrations whenever I would see him, (so basically his personal punching bag), but that was about it for a while. (I kind of thought that would be it, so I claimed to be over it.) You know, he was never home whenever my brother and I had to go over there, and there was barely any food. So we basically lived off of either frozen food or no food at all. There's a lot of extra stuff, but it's really not important. In the most simple way that I can put it, almost two years ago, (also in September), he took his abuse to another level? Or something? I don't really know how to put it. Uh ha Okay so Fbejebeheheh This is hard I guess you guys can fill in the blanks, if you care, because I'm having a hard time lol So yeah I didn't tell my Mom or step-dad until last school year. We tried to win the case but my dad lied so much and made me look crazy because of my past with cutting and suicide or whatever. But the good thing is that I don't see or hear from him at all, so I'm not as anxious as I was. Now, I think I'm just really tired, and I didn't care about anything, even school, so Wattpad and drawing on my shitty computer was one of the last things I even wanted to do. And I don't say all of this to make you guys feel bad for me; I just think you deserve an explanation to why I haven't been uploading and why I haven't been around??? But yeah I've been pretty good I guess.
I hope you guys are alright! If you ever need a buddy, I'm your gal.
Here's my stuff, just in case any of you guys need this And honestly I don't care if people see it lol Kik: npolite1 Snapchat: oceanmatsues phone/personal cell: (813) 690-3696
ANYWAYS HERES SOME ART I did another MTA redraw, and I think it's my sixth one or something. But it was a pain in the ass because my computer sucks COCK. Like it's so slow. Like it's gotten worse! I don't even know how it could've gotten any worse, but it did.
Here's the original from last year.
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^ yeah, I'm not even that dark wtf retard ^ and I forgot the mole on my nose???? How?????
Here's the new one that drove me crazy (I didn't even want to write "MTA" because my laptop was lagging SO MUCH so I edited it on my phone)
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I couldn't find the same Gorillaz image for some reason? Google Chrome wasn't working for shit, so I had to use Firefox, which I hate but it was alright. Not sure if you can see my frustrations in this piece lol but it's there.
