Penny For Your Thoughts

My Apology by Natasha Underwood

This is to the guy that I went out of my way to get noticed by

The one who I trusted, the one who told me lies

The one who made me feel like I was the only one

The one that was through with me when the sex was done.

The one that made me feel like I was impossible to love

The one who called me over when he just wanted to bust

The one that made it clear I'm not the girl he wanted me to be

I tried and I failed so this is my apology

This is to the one who gave me life the one that gave me birth

The one who complains and looks at me like I'm the worst thing on the earth.

The one who emotionally beats me down

The one whose suppose to lift me up from the ground

The one whose suppose to bring to my face nothing but smiles and laughs

The one who brings everything that is the opposite of that

The one who constantly compares me to others

The one who makes it so difficult to love her

The one who says I'm not the daughter she expected me to be.

I understand that and this is my apology

This is to the sick bastard that crept into my room

The one who gave me those thoughts of ending it soon.

The one who lied and said I was crazy in the head.

The one who had denied creeping into my bed

The one who left me scarred for life

The one who is responsible for my silent cries at night.

The one who says I've changed his life

Cause I've caused problems between him and his wife

The one who said I should have kept quiet, I should have just let things be.

He's right, nothing positive came from it, so this is my apology.

This is to my friends that say I do nothing but bitch and complain

The ones who left because they say I've changed

The ones who didn't stick around in my time of need

The ones who gave me more of a reason to grieve

I understand I'm not that girl I use to be

And for that this is my apology.

This is to the girl with the low self esteem

The girl who cries so terribly

The one with the forced and fake smile

The one who hasn't been happy for a while

The one whose afraid to trust any man

The one whose afraid to let any one in

The one whose past up many chances at love

Because she finds people hard to trust

That one that was robed of her purity and self-esteem

This is to the girl I'm embarrassed to be

This is my apology, to me.

Source: My Apology To Me, Anger Poem http://www.bestteenpoems.com/poem/my-apology-to-me#ixzz27nduvBgX

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