Alone Together... (peterick)

part 15

-patricks pov-

eating felt like a struggle cause im so full of emotion and anxiety. after i eat about half my salad that the guys bought for me, i give pete a nod to tell him im ready to have the talk with the guys.

this could be my best or worst decision...

we sit them both down on the couch and chills run up my spine when pete says, "we have to tell you guys something..."

i swear i wasnt thinking or just not in my mind when i blurted out, "we together!" that was the most scared i had been in my life, the feeling that my bestfriends might not except that two of their band mates are in a gay relationship, fucked me over.

before i knew it, i was climbing on top of the bus cause it was the only place i thought it was a good enough spot that the night not find me. i heard them hop out of the bus not long after me. i felt so disappointed in myself that i cried, harder then i had ever cried before. there on, the thoughts rolled in like a bad thunderstrom...

what have you done??
they hate you now!
whats the point of living in a world of hell?
you've just fucked yourself over.
no going back now.

I curled up into a ball hoping not to be found by the guys, until I hear Andy scream, "I FOUND HIM!!" those words scared me enough for me to want to be alone in the middle of no where for nobody to find me.

it had felt like hours just sitting there on the roof of the bus, crying, and being surrounded by my own thoughts; until arms meet my cold body. I look up; its Pete, tears on his face as well.

i jump into his arms as he tells me there isn't anything to be scared of, and they are fine with us.

we hopped off the bus casually as many people gave us eyes. I hugged the guys so tight, that I felt like I was hurting them. they were the only one who could calm me down, i haven't had anybody else calm me down like they can.

joe, "why didn't you guys tell us sooner??"

Patrick, "we were scared, well I was... I haven't even came out as bi to you guys."

joe, "we don't care who you love, we care that we are all happy! each one of us is important to everyone. there is no need to be afraid to tell us anything."

the next half hour consisted of me pacing around the bus, and Pete holding me tight in his arms. then things evened out, I became more comfortable with the fact that I was 1. out to my bestfriends and 2. they knew me and pete were dating.

it came to my surprise that my decision had been one of the best i have ever had, even though i underestimated everything.

-petes pov-

we went along with our night almost as nothing had happened, besides the facts that me and patrick had kissed in front of Andy and joe for the first time.

joe and Andy, "ewww get a room!" they said almost perfectly in sync as they laugh at their selves.

we looked at each other and laughed as we walked to the bunks together.

joe, "stay outta my bed, I don't want to sleep on wet crap."

me and patrick laid in bed together, away from the nonsense going on in the living room, and cuddled the rest of the night. soon after cuddling up together, Patrick was fast asleep against my chest.

i gave him a kiss on the head and fell asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

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