ONESHOTS → PRETTYMUCH

Brandon♡

A/N!
my friend made me turn off auto caps sorry :/ also this is a short message to anyone suffering from depression. it'll get better i promise! 🥺🖤

i was having what one would call a mental breakdown, i suffer from depression so i have these breakdowns almost daily and it's unhealthy. i'm sitting in the corner of my boyfriends room, with my knees in my face, crying my eyes out. everyone would constantly ask me what's wrong with me or who hurt me and i would reply, in the words of Billie Eilish, "this bitch" i would say pointing to myself, and no one would ever understand.

except Brandon. he always understood, no matter what i was feeling, where i was, even if i was happy he would make me feel like i could rule the universe. this day, was certainly not one of those days.

me and zion, my best friend since grade school, got into an argument, our first argument. and i caused it. he never tried to snap at me but i pushed him to. he told me he was sorry and i kept telling him off for who knows what. i forget why we even argued, i just miss him. but since it's my fault and this idiot right here hurt me, i needed him. brandon was at the music studio with edwin since the one here didn't have the needed equipment. zion came to check on me and i asked for brandon, he complied not knowing how to take care of me after all these years. now brandon is here.

"bubba? what's wrong?" he asked. i'm guessing he seen me in my hidden corner because i heard shuffling and him basically crash next to me. "bubba?" he asked again. i looked up, tears still streaming down my face. "it's all my fault..." i started sobbing, not understanding why i'm like this. "im an idiot.." i laughed bitterly while sobbing into his warm, comforting chest. "your not..stop doing that to yourself you don't deserve it Y/N." he stroked my hair softly, whispering sweet nothings into my ear, making me laugh.

"why do you do this for me?" i was still cuddled into his chest, no longer sobbing. "because you deserve it." he pulled away. "i honestly don't understand why you put so much pressure on you when you deserve the world. you have a heart of gold and flaws but who doesn't?" he smiled. "you make me happy and that's all i ask from you, love. you walk into a room and everyone is overwhelmed with joy, do you know that? you have the power to change a mood faster that anyone i know." a small smile creeped onto my face. "yeah we all have our bad days, but you make them better," he wiped a tear from my face that i didn't even know was there. "i know your insecure and i'm not forcing you to be confident, but you have the power to. you have the power to kill someone with kindness. dont let anyone ever put you down," be poked my nose. "not even you crazy, do you understand?" he whispered. i nodded softly, my smile turning into a happy frown.

ya know, when your sobbing but out of joy so your face just turns into a frown? yeah one of those.

"i love you so much and i need you to remember that." he pulled me into a hug. "i..i love you too." i choked out a sob, gripping the back of his hoodie to refrain from sobbing loudly.

"your my everything" he waited for my reply

"my world"