Lost Love

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Getting up the next morning, I slip out of bed without waking Coco. I head to the kitchen to start breakfast and once it's done, I move to the bedroom to wake Coco up. I walk into the room and he's laying on his back, one arm stretched out beside him onto my side of the bed and the other behind his head. I move to the bed quietly and straddle him. I start kissing his chest and kiss up his neck and to his lips and he turns me over where he is hovering over me. "Bueno dias mi amor." he whispers against my lips. "Good morning baby." I whisper as his lips find my neck and start placing kisses along my pulse point. I moan softly before remembering why I came in here. "Johnny, stop. Baby..." I say laughing. I finally cup his face and say "We have the rest of our lives for this. Breakfast is done." I tell him. Kissing me softly he says "I missed you so fucking much." Caressing his face, I say "I missed you too baby. I really did." We get up and I tell him "I'll get Letty up." He nods and I knock on her door. "Come in." she says. I open the door and she's putting on her shoes. "Morning baby girl." I say. "Morning." she tells me and smiles softly. "Breakfast is done." I tell her. "Great. I'm starving." she says and we both laugh as we walk into the kitchen.

Sitting down with our plates, we eat as a family and I keep looking down at my plate, not saying anything. "You okay amor?" Coco asks. I look at him and say "Yeah. I think it's all really hitting me that you're here." I say and a tear falls. I stand up and walk out the back door to the patio. I sit on the step and the tears start to fall harder. I hear the door open and Letty sits down next to me. "You okay?" she asks. I shake my head no and she puts her arm around me and lets me cry. When I get myself together a little, I say "Shit." She looks at me and says "You want to talk about it?" I shake my head and she says "I spent my entire life feeling like I wasn't wanted. Didn't even know my dad. Hell, he's only been my dad for like two months. But in one day, you've made me feel like I belong somewhere. Like I matter." she tells me. "Because you do." I tell her. "So do you. We're a family, right?" she asks and I nod my head yes. "Don't most families talk shit out?" she asks and I nod my head again. Looking down at my hands I say "I spent so many years wanting to die so I could be with him. I wanted to be with Coco so bad. I missed him so much." I tell her. "But you're together now." she tells me. "I know and I can't believe it. He was alive all this time. I should have looked for him. I should have asked for proof he was gone." I tell her and Coco takes a seat on the other side of me. "Baby, I'm here now. That's all in the past and that shit don't matter now." he tells me. I lean into him and say "I cried for you. I wanted to be with you. Coco I wanted to die with you." I sob. He has his arms around me and Letty holds my hand and she says "You have both of us Mami." I look at her and move to wrap my arms around her and kiss her temple as Coco wraps his arms around me.

A little later, we are at the clubhouse and Bishop walks up. "You okay Sweetheart?" he asks. "I think so. It's just so surreal that he's here." I tell him and he looks at me confused. "Our moms told him I moved on and told me that he was dead. All this time I thought he was dead." I tell him. "Shit. That's a lot to process but bebita, we are all here for you. You're family now." he tells me and I nod my thanks.

After a while, we head home and are sitting in the living room watching a movie when there's a knock on the door. I walk over and look through the peephole and see my mother standing there. "Shit." I say and Coco walks over. "Who is it?" he asks. I open the door and say "Hello mother." She walks in without being invited and asks "Where's James?" Looking around she sees Coco standing there and her face goes white. "Hola Martha." Coco says. "What are you doing here? Where's James?" she asks. "James isn't here anymore." Coco says as he steps forward. "You told my Old Lady I was dead?" he asks and she says "What's it matter? She's worthless and I made sure she'd never bring another worthless being like her into this world." my mother says and the tears start falling down my face. Letty walks over to me and pulls me to her. "I got you Mami." she says and I cling onto her. Coco gets in her face and seethes "You told my wife I was dead." She asks "What are you going to do about it?" He smirks and says "Same thing I did to James." and her eyes go wide. She heads towards the door and I run and stand in front of it. "No. You don't get to walk away. You took away my husband. My chance at having kids with him. You took that away from me. You fucking sold me to someone that beat the shit out of me. But my husband saved me. And we have our kid. But you. You...are....nothing." I tell her and Letty hits her over the head with the gun that was in Coco's kutte hanging on the rack. I look at her and she asks "The family that kills together?" Coco finished "Stays together."

We put her in the trunk of Coco's car and head out to the desert. "You good with this mi amor?" he asks. I look at him and then Letty before saying "Yeah I am." We get out to a spot in the desert and Coco gets her out of the trunk. Walking her over to the spot where Letty and I were standing, he throws her to the ground. "You took my wife from me. But that's okay. I got my woman and I won't let her go again." he tells her and I smile softly. Letty walks up to my mom and says "You hurt my Mami. You sold her. You're not a mother. But her..." she says pointing to me "she is my mother. She's going to be a better mother than you could ever think of being. She's my Mami and no one fucks with my Mami." before he puts a bullet in her head and we start digging my mother's grave. On the way home, I'm quiet. "You okay Mami?" Letty asks. "Yeah. I think I'm finally realizing I'm free. I have the man I love and our kid. This was all I wanted." I tell him and wipe away the tears that fall. Coco reaches for my hand and pulls my hands to his lips, kissing my knuckles as the three of us head home as a family.