AISLE | #wattys2019

ch4:Too soon

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she knew this would be a long process and that this will be a long hill to climb after falling down so hard ,it was more like she was swimming a never ending ocean ,lost between the ugliness of death and the beauty of calmness that it represented

people often thinks that sadness is an overrated emotion ,some even go as far as calling it dramatic ,but those are just ones that experienced the hurt of being sad and built a wall to protect themselves ,maybe she could do the same ,maybe she can try

she has been thinking a lot these days and these thoughts gave her a blocked type of sense ,why was her family there at the time ? ,why was it meant for only her to be alive and dive into the pain of letting them go ,dive into the desperation of being not able to do a single thing

it's funny actually how much a human being is weak ,how fragile this creature is ,how amazing is it for her to reach these levels of vulnerability so fast

she blocked the thoughts ,thinking seemed to break her further more and she wasn't able to endure that right now ,she needed to stand up again , change the happy girl inside of her into a new cold one ,she needed to go through a long way to reach her desire to discover and reveal the truth about her family's death

did she know how ? of course not ,but baby steps she will take and she will most certainly grab the tiniest of hope again ,yes it was hard and she was a spoiled kid for all she knew all her 19 years ,but now she was alone and loneliness solidifies a mysterious type of strength

here she was ,thinking again ,she had to stop ,she lifted her head that was leaning against the window watching people come and go ,was normal always this beautiful ? was simplicity always this captivating ? ,she sighed then unfolded her crossed arms to rub her forehead ,she then took a look at the room for the first time ,it was nothing out of the ordinary ,just four white walls ,a medical bed and a nightstand with a bouquet of flowers ,wait ,when did someone even bring that ? ,and who even brought it

she walked slowly to the bouquet ,they were red hybrid tea roses ,she grabbed one of them and smelled it deeply while closing her eyes ,it was a heavenly smell ,roses were a bless from god to beautify this ugly world filled with hate and murders ,her mother would've loved these ,she was a delicate woman with a deep passion for beautiful things ,and everything was beautiful for her no matter the flow

suddenly she heard a faint sound of music ,she didn't want to move from her spot but she had to because her curiosity was far too strong ,she followed the sound ,it was coming from the hall outside ,she opened the door and took a quick look ,the sound was getting stronger ,she made sure to avoid the nurses and doctors and listened carefully till she came in front of a hospital room that was two blocks away from hers ,it was a man singing ,he sounded angelic ,she opened the door but not before hesitating

what she saw made her go still with surprise ,the scene in front of her could only be described by the world captivating ,her doctor was sittiong on the bed with four little children while wearing his medical white blouse ,a girl was sitting on his lap while he played the guitar and sang his heart out while keeping a beautiful smile on his face ,the other girl was looking tired and exhausted while laying on the bed smiling faintly ,two boys were on each side of the bed grabbibg each hand of hers while trying not to cry

it was only more breathtaking when the window opened on its own a little and the air breathed a cold sigh that made her black hair fly just to rest on her shoulders instead of her back ,not long after the rays of sun came waltzing inside to give the man's face a touch of magical handsomeness while he kept playing not even noticing the sound of the door opening nor her standing there while staring non stop