Letting Him Go

2.

I woke up the next morning after crying myself to sleep. I just wished the pain would just go away but it was still there and very strong. I ran to the bathroom suddenly having  the urge to throw up.

I reached the toilet and let my food come up. My hair was in the way and I know for a fact that I had gotten throw in it. I wished he was here to hold my hair. I didn't have the urge to throw up anymore and flushed the toilet.

I wished he was here to kiss me in the morning when he was on his way to work. I smiled recalling all the times he got up an hour earlier than he had to just to make me breakfast every morning.

My smile dropped as I remembered he was gone now. I got up from the floor and washed my hands and brushed my teeth. I went to my bedroom that still smelled of him and got fresh clothes, getting ready to take a bath .

I went to the bathroom again and turned on the hot water and watched as the tub began to fill. When the tub was 1/4 full I put the lavender soap that my ex friend Destiny gave me. I stopped the water when it was 1/2 full and stripped of my clothes and got into the tub.

Flashback
" Please?" He said with puppy eyes, trying to convince me to take a bath with him. " Fine" I said getting annoyed because this was like the 10th time he had asked me. He grabbed my hand and led me straight to the bathroom.

He started to fill the tub up with warm water and when it was 1/4 full he added a soap that smelled of  flowers. As the water started to fill up he started to strip his clothes and when he was done he got in the tub and stopped the water. " Come on baby" He said urging me to do the same.

So that's what I did and we talked for hours about our future, what our kids would look like, and random things.

End of flashback
I noticed I was crying recalling the days when I was truly happy. Who could ever make me as happy as he did? NO ONE!