Benji's P.O.V.
By the time I woke up again it was a normal hour, at least normal for me. I checked my phone and saw that it was 10 and realized my mom was probably awake and wondering who was here, because of the car in the driveway. I get out of bed without waking Nick up thankfully and then I go downstairs while trying to mentally prepare myself with what was about to go down. After talking to Nick earlier I decided now was the best time to tell my mom about everything.
"Hey mom, can we talk about something?" She knew that whenever I needed to talk to her that it was something serious. So I knew she wouldn't say no.
"Of course, you know I'll always be available to talk to you." I knew that I had to tell her everything, because at this point I really had nothing to hide.
"So I've basically always known, but I'm gay and when I got in trouble for kissing a girl it was actually a guy, and up until recently I've had a crush on Nick, but now I'm not so sure. Also Nick it here right now because he got scared that something happened to me, because I never answered his calls last night." I always forget how overwhelming telling the truth is. The funny thing is people always say it feels like a giant weight being lifted off your shoulders when you tell the truth, but honestly it doesn't make me feel any different, if anything I feel worse because there's just so much that has happened.
"Sweetie I already knew, and with the crush on Nick thing, I'm not surprised, he's a good looking guy and he's nice. Also him coming over isn't a big deal, I'm surprised he didn't try to hide in one of the boxes or something." Of course she knew, she always ended up knowing everything about me before I even knew it.
"The truth is he wanted to, but I told him no because he has a life back in Madrid. What's shocked me is that he lasted 12 hours before seeing me." I'm thankful we can still joke like this, I've been a little bit closed off recently, an I honestly feel really bad about it.
After our conversation my mom starts making breakfast, once Nick comes downstairs everything feels like it did before we moved, I honestly missed this more than anything. In the middle of my thoughts the doorbell rings.
"I GOT IT" I yell to my mom and Nick. Who would be here at 11 am on a Sunday. I open the door and it's Jorge??
"Hey, um what are you doing here?" I'm scared to let him in because 1.) my mom doesn't need to assume anything and 2.) who knows how Nick will react.
"Mi mamá se enojó conmigo antes y este fue el único lugar en el que se me ocurrió ir donde no me juzgarían." (My mom got mad at me earlier and this was the only place I could think of to go where I wouldn't be judged.) I had to let him in after that and honestly if Nick throws a fit he can leave because he wasn't even supposed to be here anyway.
"BENJI WHO WAS IT?" My mom always yells when I'm in the same room as here without her knowing.
"No need to yell, also this is Jorge, we met yesterday at the school and he helped me get to know the town" My mom looks at Jorge, while I avoid looking at Nick. I could feel the tension from him, he's the only one who seems to be feeling like this.
"Hola Ms. Krol, soy Jorge, lo siento por mi espanol." (Hello Ms. Krol, I'm Jorge, sorry for my Spanish)
"Jorg no te preocupes, crecí hablando español." (Jorge no worries, I grew up speaking Spanish) I feel bed because I'm the reason my mom doesn't really speak Spanish much, but it doesn't help that none of my friends speak Spanish, especially Nick.
"Um, hello. Are we just going to pretend I'm not here." Shit, that's the most annoyed I've ever seen Nick.
"Oh yeah, sorry, Nick this is Jorge, Jorge this is Nick. Nick no habla espanol." (Nick doesn't speak Spanish) I already hate having to explain that, I can just feel like this is going to end badly for everyone, but especially Jorge, because Nick can be ruthless towards someone he feels even slight distaste towards.
"Hey Jorge, so why did you decide to show up unannounced?" Of course he's just going straight to being cold.
"Um, well, something happened at home, and um I felt like Benji was the only person that I could come to without being asked questions, or without being um, how do I say, ju-judged?" I felt so bad for Jorge, his English wasn't the best to begin with, but then here we have Mr. Nick Manning, being his usual judgy self.
"Hey Nick, how about we talk in private real quick, while my mom and Jorge talk." I needed to figure out once and for all why this was all going on, because I know it is not just because he 'showed up unannounced'. I take Nick upstairs into my room because I knew it was the best place to talk.
"What was all of that? I know that if it had been literally anybody else you wouldn't have cared, so why are you so upset with Jorge? You've known him all of three minutes and assume that he's the worst thing ever." I'm tired of all of this bullshit, he knows that no one could ever be a closer friend to me than him.
"I just don't want you being friends with someone you know nothing about. Home problems is the biggest load of bs I've ever hear, but of course you're believing him because you always do. You're always loved by everybody, and never spare the one person who actually cares the most a glance. You say you've had a crush on me, but I think that was a lie for you to just keep me pulled in. The truth is Benji, I have had a crush on you since the day we met. I've wanted you to feel the same way for years, but once you told me it didn't feel right. It felt forced. For all I know the one you have a crush on is Jorge, he seems like a much better match for you than me." I don't even know how to respond, he had a crush on me this whole time. He's gay, that's the biggest plot twist since, I don't even know when. How am I even supposed to respond to this.
"First of all why would he lie about home problems. Second of all I've literally had a crush on you for years, up until recently when you started acting like a child. Third of all if you've had a crush on me this entire time then why did you never say anything? Finally, I don't have a stupid crush on Jorge, I've known him for a day, like okay yeah he's cute, but that's it. Up until recently I thought I was madly in love with you, but after today I don't even know how I'm going to be able to look at you with how you've been acting. You're 17 Nick, not 12. This is real life, not a game, so please, stop acting like it's all just a joke." After I say all that I go to leave, but the second I open my door I see Jorge.
"Fuck, can you just please move, I want to be alone?" Thankfully he does and after that I go downstairs and run outside, and I just keep running and running until I don't know where I am. I go to reach for my phone in my pocket and then I realize I left it back at home. I look around to see if I know where I am but all I see is fields.
"How far did I run?" Why did I just ask that, no one is here with me.
"Bueno, hace unas cuadras te fuiste de la ciudad." (Well, a few blocks ago you left the town)
"Shit, Jorge I didn't even notice you following me." Wow, can't believe my only friend in this town has seen me at my worst. Not even Nick has seen me like this.
"Lo siento. ¿Quieres que hable en inglés mientras explico todo, si te lo hará más fácil?" (I'm sorry. Do you want me to speak in English while I explain everything, if it'll make it easier for you?) I never even thought about it, I guess English is easier for me, but Spanish easier for him, so it was never a big deal to me.
"I mean I guess if you want to explain in English you can, but if Spanish is easier than don't worry about me, I can understand what you're saying."
"I will just say it in English, because it's a lot, and I want to make things easiest for you. So basically the whole reason I came over this morning started when I got home last night..."
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Date Written: 7/22/19
Date Edited: 7/22/19
Date Published: 7/22/19
Word Count: 1550
This is a longer chapter since my last chapter kind of fell short. Hopefully this one is a little better than the last one. I didn't really know how this one was going to go but I wanted Nick to like Benji back, but in a more selfish way. I'll probably update again on Wednesday just because tomorrow is the 9 year anniversary of One Direction. Thank you for reading this, it honestly means the world. I know this doesn't have a lot of views, but every single one makes all of this worth it. Again thank you. One last thing, how do y'all picture Nick to look? I need to figure out how he looks, and I'm not really sure.
~Kelly
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