I feel so bad, sorry I haven't updated in literally ages.
Benji's P.O.V.
I woke up a few hours later to the sound of my phone ringing at full volume right in my ear. What a great way to wake up, am I right?
"Hello." I know I probably shouldn't have answered, but honestly it's not like I would've fallen back to sleep right away anyway.
"Hey, oh my god you're okay. Benji I've been calling you for the past hour. I thought you were going to call me once you got back to your house, what happened?" Of course, it had to be Nick. He's honestly the last person I wanted to talk to.
"Oh yeah, sorry, I fell asleep the second I got back home." It wasn't a lie, but it also wasn't the full truth, I honestly just wasn't in the mood to talk to him especially after the conversation we had earlier.
"Well, let's just say I got a little too worried, and I'm almost to your house." Wait a minute, what, I literally live five hours away.
"What time is it?" It can't be any later than like 5, which would kind of make sense I guess, if he left right after midnight.
"It's almost 4:30. I left about four hours ago, and there's no traffic, so I'm making good time. Had you answered your phone when I called an hour ago, I probably would have just turned around, but since you didn't I'm going to stay with you for a while I guess." Oh my god, this is the worst thing to happen to me since finding out we were moving. Three weeks ago, had I heard this I would've jumped up out of bed and tried to make myself look presentable, but now I just don't even want to see him.
"Okay, cool, I'll go unlock the front door, I'll probably be asleep when you get here. My room is the first room on the right upstairs." After I said that I hung up. I know I should feel bad but all I want to do is crawl in a hole and die. The boy I thought I would be head over heels for my entire life is coming to my house, and I should be happy, but all I want to do is call Jorge and tell him what's going on. I just feel this connection to him that I've never felt with anyone, not even Nick. The weird thing is though, this connection doesn't feel like a crush or like love, it just feels comfortable. I go downstairs to unlock the door, and then I go back upstairs and go to the bathroom before going back to sleep.
Next thing I know I feel someone tapping me, and saying my name. Then I remember the conversation I had on the phone earlier and shoot up out of bed. I'm running to the bathroom and before I even register what's going on I'm throwing up in the toilet.
"Benj-, holy shit are you okay? What am I even thinking, of course you're not okay. Was it something you ate, did that Jorge guy poison you or something?"
"No he did not poison me. Why do you hate him so much, I've known him for less than a day and you're already jealous. I just don't feel good, it has nothing to do with him. So please, get rid of that accusatory tone." He looks at me taken aback from what I just said, maybe I overstepped with the whole jealousy thing, but at the same time I genuinely have no idea what else it could be.
"First of all I'm not jealous of him, because I have nothing to be jealous of, and second of all I'm just worried about you. Ever since you found out you were moving you've just been really distant, and I didn't want to lose my best friend." There was more that he was wanting to say, but I wasn't going to force it out of him because that's just not the right thing to do, even if I am upset with him, it's not my place.
"I'm sorry, it just seems weird that you were all talkative and happy until I mentioned that I was hanging out with a guy. It honestly feels like you're the one with the crush and not me." Oh my god, I can't believe I just said that. I feel like I need to throw up again, but there's nothing left in my stomach.
"What, you have a crush... on me, I thought there was that guy from the mall." Now I have to tell him the truth and then I'll probably start crying like a little baby because I don't know how to get my feelings across without crying for some reason.
"Yeah, about that. The boy from the mall is you, or was, I don't really know anymore. All I do know is that we were at the mall when I came to the realization that I liked you as more than a friend." It felt pretty good to be able to tell him how I was actually feeling for once.
"What do you mean by, or was, like do you still like me?"
"I mean I'm not really sure. I was so certain that I'd always like you, but after meeting Jorge and talking to him about it after the phone call, I honestly don't know how I feel anymore, all I know for certain is that when I found out you were coming here, I felt sick." After saying that I knew I probably went too far, and hurt his feelings, but honestly he deserves it after acting cold about Jorge.
"Wait do you like Jorge now, am I going to have to worry about you being all hung up about this boy I don't even know? Also, wow thanks for making me feel good about myself, I make you feel sick, am I that unbearable."
"No, I don't like Jorge, he just helped me with this whole thing. Honestly, yeah, I just think we need time apart, that's one of the main reasons I really didn't call you when I got back home. I did fall asleep right away, but I also just didn't want to talk to you."
"Okay so let me get this straight. You didn't call me when you got back because you didn't want to talk to me, and because you were tired. So you fall asleep and don't answer my calls, which causes me to come here. Then you see me and run into the bathroom to throw up, which might I add we are still in the bathroom. While in the bathroom I find out you had a crush on me and might still like me, but probably not, and the reason you have come to this realization is because of this boy that you've known for like 12 hours, whom you don't like." I think about this and realize that so much has happened in the past few hours, it's all so overwhelming.
"Yeah, pretty much. Now can we leave the bathroom and go to bed because I'm still tired and I don't feel like thinking right now?" After that we go back to my room and share my bed, because I can't be assed to clean off the guest bed.
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Written: 7/20/19
Edited: 7/20/19
Published: 7/20/19
Word Count: 1230
Sorry this is the worst thing ever, I'll post a better chapter on Monday. Also sorry I suck at updating like a normal person.
-Kelly
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