Jug came home with me he wanted to help out. My mom was super wobbly and jug and my dad helped her walk in because she was sore and she was put on bed rest. " you good ms cooper "
" can we just take a break"
" yeah " she relaxed on my dad.
" sorry it's a lot harder than I thought "
" it's okay just take your time "
" juggie "
" yeah baby "
" my foot really hurts "
" want me to carry you to bed "
" no "
" want me to get you some medicine "
" no "
" want a long cuddle"
" no "
" baby I'm really lost what do you want "
" I don't know "
" can you guys get up to bed "
" yeah I got it thank you jughead " he picked me up and took me to my room. I laid facing the wall. I felt the bed dip a bit from him sitting I just looked at the wall letting soft tears fall down my face silently.
" can I be alone jug " I tried not to sound sad but he can read me like a book
" if that's what you want " I didn't expect him to say that I want him just hold me and let me cry in his arms but he said that.
" no " I said letting the my sadness show through
" want to talk "
" no "
" want to snuggle "
" no "
" betts what going on "
" I want to be alone "
" but you just said no "
" I I want to be alone "
" would you face me "
" no "
" betts "
" go away "
" okay "
" no don't " he got up and started to walk to the door " no please juggie "
" you keep telling me to go " I sat up and faced him.
" but your supposed to not go "
" I know something is wrong but you won't open up and tell me "
" I don't want to "
" why "
" I just don't "
" then I'll go "
" juggie "
" betts "
" don't go "
" what do you want then because you tell me to leave then you don't want me to talk to you or cuddle and you won't talk about it "
" i don't want to talk about it "
" why "
" you'll judge and you'll never see me the same"
" I want to help you I've never judged you why would I "
" I'm having nightmares all the time and there of when I was in the sisters "
" why baby "
" I don't know but I'm scared now every time I close my eyes "
" baby why didn't you tell me "
" because it don't want you to think I'm baby but I'm so scared " I started crying. " and all I wanted was your support but I didn't want you to know " he came over and sat next to me.
" what can I do to help "
" I don't know " I cried
" aww come here " I went in his arms my head in his neck. " baby all you got to do it tell me and I'll support you and help you never will I judge you "
" I'm just scared "
" maybe you want to talk about it "
" I don't know "
" why don't all of us even your parents talk they need to know so they can help "
" no mom is sick and I don't want to stress them out "
" baby they want to know I know you think it would stress them out but this needs to be talked about "
" as long as your there to "
" I'm going to sit right next to you. "
" okay " we went and she knocked on there door her mom was sitting up in bed and her dad was next to her
" hey pumpkin what's up "
" can I talk "
" yeah sure sit "
" can jug stay please "
" yeah sure " we sat at the end of the bed jug was super sweet and just softly rubbing my back. " you've been crying pumpkin what's wrong "
" I have been having nightmares and there scary and I just am scared to go to sleep because I'm going to have them and there of the sisters of quiet mercy "
" oh pumpkin why "
" I don't know and I'm scared " I started crying " juggie said to tell you guys cause you would want to know and would help "
" yes pumpkin we always want to know okay and maybe if you go see a therapist she can help you "
" what's that "
" you talk to her and she will help you "
" okay "
" I can set an appointment up today "
" okay " I looked down into my lap
" baby there is nothing to be ashamed of or embarrassed of okay "
" I'm 17 and having nightmares I see why you grandparents said I'm to young "
" betts it's okay to go through things and you think its making you seem young but it isn't "
" thanks " my dad was on the phone. I snuggled into jugs side.
" she can fit you in pumpkin now if you head over "
"Okay " I went in and she basically said it's probably because I'm scared for jug to leave she told me to just try and sleep without him more and it will help. So I decided tonight I would sleep alone and I actually got a amazing sleep.
