I... I... I Lov... Why The Fuck Can't I Say It To His Face?! (boyXboy)

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I'm your typical gay guy. Looking and acting straight but deep inside I'm attracted to men. I've been like this since I was in high school, while all my other friends and classmates are talking how hot and sexy girls are, yours truly on the other hand is fawning over my bestfriend, Sebastian. Cliché, I know. But, hey, isn't it that people often fall in love with their bestfriend?

Sebastian has been my bestfriend since childhood. Even when we were younger, he's been always the center of attention. Aside from his good looks, he's got a tall and athletic body which must be the product of being a sporty guy who swims and plays a lot, I mean A LOT, of basketball. He has tanned skin on his exposed extremities while having a contrasting paleness on the ones covered by his clothes. He's of German-Canadian descent mixed with a pinch of Asian blood. He can be an actor or a model if he wanted to. I may be biased when I say this, but he is the most handsome guy I've seen. That's what all people say about their loved ones, isn't it?

A rather peculiar asset he's got are 1) his dimple on his left cheek, and 2) his slightly blue right eye while his left is brown. He's also got this aura that draws people to him. He have this charismatic smile and contagious laughter.

Sebastian being ... well .... Sebastian, is almost always surrounded by the crowd, getting praises and all but he never became a total jerk. He is just like prince charming. I know this sounds another cliché but I kid not, he really a perfect example of a gentleman. He's been with a few girlfriends but none would last long. Wanna know the reason why? Despite his prince-like demeanor, he can be really cruel. Women will shower him with all their affection and will passively accept it. They said he does act like he's your boyfriend but you can never feel truly loved.

I'm just an average guy blending among the mob, blessed with pale skin and cursed to have a very poor eyesight. I think I'm somewhat handsome? I too, have a pretty hot body since I go to the gym. I have a shaggy hair that I often avoid cutting unless told by others that it is growing too long. I like my hair, it's reddish brown in color so yeah, sue me for trying to keep it long. I'm also a complete nerd wearing baggy clothes with thick rimmed rectangular glasses that no one considered cool when I was in high school. I'm a dork who acts like a pervert though I have no interest in women at all.

I have spent my whole high school life trying to be normal. Sure I had a few girlfriends but I know I can never be in serious in a relationship with women. I never had a boyfriend either, since all I wanted to be with is you-know-who.

Before I realized that I only liked Sebastian, I've always thought that I just haven't met the girl I will love. But when puberty struck, I'd always smell a scent that seems only I could sense. A scent that gets my dick hard and my head dizzy with lust. A scent that I only smell when Sebastisn is near. Shit! Really irritating. And when I have sex with women, he would pop up in my mind. I eventually fantasized about him when I jerk off.

Anyway, since I'm not good at story telling let's fast forward to the day it all happened, the last day of my high school life. After graduation, our group of friends set out to have a celebration party at a popular bar in our home town.

Moving on, the rest of the group is becoming pretty drunk but they kept on bugging me to reconsider my choice to study in the city.

Well, I always wanted to move to the city, the life in the countryside is pretty cramped and everyone knows everyone. I want to be free and have my gay debut in the city where the people are more tolerant towards the third gender. Besides, I want to meet with people like me.

Since that night's probably gonna be my last chance being with my bestfriend Sebastian, I want to at least kiss him. I need a plan so I pretended to be so drunk. I know I can get away with it since I really have a low tolerance for alcohol and everybody knows it.