My mind, my mind, my mind is going crazy
Can't be like this anymore
Can't wait here anymore
Need to go up already
Need to shout out my name already
Need to be out already
Wanna breathe now
Wanna touch the sky now
Want my voice to reach people now
Real people
I've something to say
Can you lend an ear?
Because I've a lots of somethings to say
Age age age
Don't like seeing the dates
Don't like when nights come and days end
I feel all this is temporary
But that's just what I feel
Even though it's hauntingly screamingly fearlessly strong
It's just a feeling
How much can I count on that
Counting days
Counting moments
My head's gonna burst
Should I save myself and be reckless?
Or should I disappear into the night quietly?
The latter is the easier one
I can't hang in this middle ground any longer
My mind's going crazy
Every single moment for months and months it's been this way
It should be years by now
How
How
How did this happen to me?
Why?
Why can't I be just normal?
Want ordinary things
Want ordinary life
Why not?
Why I want the stars and the moon and the sun
Why I want I burn
I don't know
Something's wrong
Something's very wrong inside of me
Home
Why am I still living?
Is it just because I'm looking for a home or I want something greater?
Greater
Great
Something great
My name to be a brand
My face to be a brand
Someone
Wanna be someone
Wanna be me
But in the end I'm just a wannabe
Words have left me
Or did I leave them?
Am I not a coward?
A shameless one at that
Just gave up
Gave up on everything
I don't care
Cause no one knows how fucking exhausting it is to want to want to keep looking for reasons to live for one more day
I'm going crazy
I'm gonna vomit everywhere
Can't hold it in inside anymore
My insides
My insides are rising to my throat
A huge lump
Can't breathe
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Don't want this anymore
Yes yes, yes I want to make it big
But, how can I be daring enough to say that?
I'm just a wannabe
