To place trust in the future the past must be endured.
I can't remember my past life.
Do flashbacks suddenly bring back to life what is normal?
I guess I'll try to fill in the blank of last summer.
I want to understand the pain of others.
My inexperience makes me dizzy.
Placed in a little, dark room to forget.
Today I can sleep.
I can sleep.
You came down this far. Suprise, suprise.
By the way, I should let you know. Those words above, they're not mine. I wish they were. I feel everything they speak is true. In case you are curious, it's "Words Tell A Lie" by Itsue. I feel like what she is has chosen as her title is completely honest. Despite having the word lie in the title. Do you feel like many words are lies?
"I love you"
"I'll always be here"
"I promise you this"
"You mean so much to me"
"I'd never leave you"
"I hate you"
"I wish we'd never met"
Yeah, not all lies have to sound good. Some liars have regrets behind their tongue and when they say hateful things, they wish they'd said the exact opposite. Most people go about though, spilling lies like it's just normal words having no empathy for the ones hearing what they speak. You must understand the difference between empathy and sympathy as those two words will be used more here in Solemn. Sympathy is feeling for another's emotions, while empathy is understanding another's emotions. You reading this, you have empathy. That's why you're here. I haven't really seen you express it towards many, but you have shown it towards me. This chapter wasn't necessarily directed at you. I'm not calling you a liar. Not why I brought you back. I brought you back because I do care. I do love you. Your past doesn't matter, neither does mine does it? Are we sure we want to keep searching the heavens for a future we aren't even positive of? We could just lie in the grass and watch the stars instead of trying to grab them. You know, some things are beyond our reach, and much too far over our heads. Our heads keep distracting us telling us the farther we get in the sky, the closer we'll be to the stars. What they never tell us is that when you get up there, you have to break the atmosphere, and the gravitational pull of Earth to get into space and sometimes that force is so strong it sends us right back to our knees, right where we started. Sometimes I think we forget we're not weightless and so we can't just touch the sky. You might not be strong enough right now. I know I'm not, but don't let my words stop you from reaching for the stars. I'm just going to watch the stars from a distance, maybe visit them when I'm strong enough to fight gravity. You can do whatever you think is best. I'll always support your decisions. That's what friends are for, right?
I'll just say goodnight this time. Your words made me not want to say goodbye this time around. Thank you.
~Audry
