So I guess I'm done when it comes to making friends. Finding out that the only one I had here near me just wanted to use me for disgusting crap? I don't get people. You know, I've been nothing but kind to them, I can't even count up how much time, energy, and money I've spent on them. It's just stupid, and then I just got lectured for an hour over it. Giving in to all the bullshit, I feel like such an idiot. And my grandmother says I can't let just one person ruin every other person out there, but literally everyone is like that. My therapist says I need to make friends here. That people miles away won't always be there. And when I did go out and make friends here in town, look at what they've gone and done. Weird talking about this, I refuse to in most situations, but I told that "friend" I wasn't ready for anything like that, and that I don't feel any sort of sexual attraction to anyone. So because "Audry is just being Audry" they're all upset and want to kill themself. That's fucking stupid. What does "Audry just being Audry" even mean? Is there something wrong with how I feel towards those situations? I feel like that's stupid, and he's just a dick being a dick. I don't know dude, but that's really bothering me. I can't do things with my sister because my parents won't let her, and I don't know anyone else here, it sucks. I just need to move away.
