Loser

Chapter 2: Trench - Twenty One Pilots (Hope)

Well, this chapter is about my friends, my closest friends, but not about my best friend, I'll save her for another chapter, a special one. The album choice for this chapter has a special meaning, Trench is a conceptual record. Which is exactly why I think you should listen to it before you continue reading.

So, a little about this album, it narrates a story, of a man trapped inside this kind of prison, which represents all of our insecurities, doubts, thought, overall our minds. When trying to escape he is helped by this group of people called banditos, this group of people leads him far from this prison. But voices make him tend to return to this prison. See the banditos are like the ones that are there for us. So I see my friends as Banditos.

I can only say that they mean the world to me, they have always helped me without even knowing what they were doing. The stupid things that always come out of their mouth always help me to make my day better. That is why I appreciate them so much, and I enjoy EVERY SINGLE MOMENT with them. That is one of the few things that I am proud of. That I could find these people and call them Friends. (POLARIZE - TWENTY ONE PILOTS)

Since I just started college, I am moving away from these people, which caused a huge hole in my heart. The last vacation the only thing I thought about was WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT THESE GUYS. During all the parties and days I hung out with them I tried to appreciate every second with them. Some of them went to other universities, but most of them are going to college in other countries, so I really won't see them. Very few of them went to the same college as me.

It's like a huge part of this sinking boat breaks and floats away, and the only thing is that thanks to it, the boat will sink faster. I didn't know what I was gonna do without them in my life no more. That was my only and biggest fear of this change. Leaving these people behind is one of the things that caused a great impact on me. Every time I get the opportunity to see them again I am reborn again, all the dark thoughts that live in my mind hide for a while. (MY BOY - CAR SEAT HEADREST)

But then I met my college friends, and I can only ask myself: HOW THE FUCK COULD I HAVE FOUND THESE AMAZING SOULS? These guys mean the world to me right now, I couldn't have gotten any luckier than this. I can count my college friends with my hands, but I don't think friends should be measured in quantity, they should be measured by quality. Only three days passed since the start of classes and I already think of them as my best friends. The most amazing people I have ever met.

Only a few months and they have already proven me that I can count on them no matter what. I know I shouldn't trust people that easy, and over the time I have learned that. I don't trust people easily, normally I sit quietly on the corner and wait for fate to send me a friend, and over time trust in them, every day more and more. But with them, It was different, I began to trust them so quickly and I DON'T HAVE A SINGLE REGRET.

So, why I titled this chapter "Hope". It was because they taught me that at the end of every that tunnel, there is a bright light waiting for me. These guys were the sailors that took me off my sinking boat and allowed me to stay in theirs. But there was not a small boat, they have this huge yacht I could say. I think that this metaphor is one way to explain how amazing they are.

But writing these SHITTY metaphors and making them read this will never explain how much they mean to me, and since I don't think I'm good explaining myself they will never know. The only thing I can do now it's leave it up to them to realize this. But yeah, I guess that's kind of it for this chapter leaving my friends and readers with one song that hopefully will help them understand a little bit more about how special they are. And that is something they should know already. (I LOVE MY FRIENDS - FOSTER THE PEOPLE)