Not Sorry I Want You

6 Smack

Jade sang in the shower that one day, she hated mornings for sure, but she couldn't deny the glow in this particular morning and for once the first thing on her mind was not about school tests.

It was about a stranger, a note, and jade green roses. She watched the water droplets roll from her chest to her stomach and down, and then she came back to think of her stranger.
"He doesn't hate me. "

She said to herself, smiling a little as the words rolled on her tongue, it made her feel strange, she hadn't received any form of care from anyone for such a long time she didn't know how to name it, but it made her want to sing more...

"Strange how it feels when I look in the mirror
I see a man with his eyes full of terror
And it's something so obvious, but I missed it all in the rush
I'm out of the place and it feels so familiar
Lately, I've been terrified cause-"

"Hey!" Jade protested as she noticed her music off. "You would think after leaving it on charge for four hours it can play a song twenty-one times and not get tired. "
She muttered, annoyed.

She turned off the water wrapped a towel around herself and stepped out of her bathroom.
She met Jan in her room with a pile of clothes sprayed on the bed.

"What are you doing?" She asked when saw the mass of clothes on her bed. "Helping you pick clothes?" Jan retorted. " Jade was confused where was all this coming from? She walked to the bed and sat on it. "What are you up to?" she asked.

Jan rolled her eyes heavenward and threw clothes in her face. "Go wear this". Jade took a look at the clothes and her eyes popped out.
"When did I have these? I am not wearing it. " She threw it back.

The clothes were black rip jeans and a strapped top almost cropped. "No way. " She said again.
"Why not? Aren't you tired of the 'Swallow Me' clothes you wear? You always look pathetic. I mean, that's one of the main reasons they pick on you, your fashion sense is so low. " She queried.

Jade knew deep down her sister didn't care about her, she was just embarrassed that she was her sister and they shared the same name.

"For your information those 'Swallow Me' clothes are comfy, I love them and I won't start dressing all hot and whatever, just because a bunch of weed heads beat me up in public. "

Jan burst out in laughter "So you can talk huh? " Jade ignored her, what would everyone think? Oh, we knocked some sense into her? They will redouble their intimidation. "But you need to stop dressing like garbage, it's embarrassing" Jan busted out.

Ouch, that hurt, she swallowed up, tears pooled in her. "Look, I didn't mean to come out like that" Jan tried to cool out the air after her outburst.

"Now I understand where you're going, but I love my clothes and I won't change my dressing just because April and her gang did what they did, it would only worsen everything, okay? So let me be. " She was trying desperately not to cry. Jan moaned and stomped her feet down.

"Okay suit yourself, I will be leaving first". Her sister picked up her bag from the nightstand where she kept it, "like always" Jade muttered under her breath as she left.

"And here I am again" grunted Jade when she got out of the car. She didn't want to start explaining to herself how much she hated school again or how much dread and fear she felt all at once at the sight of the school building. Maybe April will let her be for a while now, at least, she hoped.