i've woken up to the worst news. the worst timing and the worst news.
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i've gotten off the phone with ethan after talking with him for hours, crying more than talking i guess you could say. ethan was offered a job transfer to florida for a modelling contract for a high market business. understandably he took the job. he was always sincere when he told me, i could feel in his voice how heart broken he was. but it couldn't compare to how i feel.
because well, i've fallen. and i'm way too deep. but i'm in love. and he is the only thing on my mind.
he tried to hold back his tears on the phone with me, but i knew he was crying. there was nothing more that i wanted than to be there with him then.
we both agreed to continue our relationship long distance. we don't know for sure how long he will be there. but i know he'll always be with me in heart.
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i've decided to go to his house. i know he's upset, as am i. i'm on my way now and i can't wait to be with him, i want to soak up everything last minute i'm able to get with him before he has to leave.
he leaves next week. i'm dreading it more than anything. i feel the weight of my heart. it's so heavy today.
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i walk upstairs and into his room. i open the door and see him sitting on his bed. i walk up to him and he stands up to hug me. i can tell how much this is making him sad but i know taking this opportunity will make him happy.
