It Girls (The Bad Girls Club)

Are You Hard Or Soft?

Brittany's POV

I just cry and cry. Start panicking and not being able to breath. I rush to my medicine cabinet in my bathroom. I grab my xanax and take one. I go back to my room and lay on my bed. I hear a knock on my door and everyone comes in. Well everyone except Jake. My heart beats a little faster.
"Where's Jake", I ask.
"He's just getting something to drink", Eli says.
"Yeah it's late and we have to get home. We just came up to tell you bye", Ethan says.
They all give me a hug even the girls.
"Thank y'all. I love y'all", I say.
I hear mumbles of I love you toos and the door closes.
I lay in bed just thinking of Brandon. Every hug, every fight, every milkshake, every Christmas, every birthday. I just feel so lonely and broken. I hold the unicorn Brandon won for me and just think. The door opens I look and it's Jake. I sit up and wiped my tears.
"Hey are you okay", I ask.
"Only you", Jake says smirking and shaking his head.
"What", I say smiling.
"You were the one who was crying and you make sure I'm okay", he says.
"Well I mean you have blood on your shirt and on your hands not me. So of course I asked", I say standing up.
"It's your fault", he says.
"What how is it my fault", I ask.
"Okay okay it's not your fault", he says. "It just scared me. I saw Ryan's hands on you and I couldn't", he stops and he's looking away.
I looks at his eyes and they are glossy.
"I don't think Ryan was going to hurt me. I was having an anxiety attack and I think he got scared", I confess.
"Wait he wasn't hurting you", Jake asked.
"No I'm so sorry I tried telling you earlier but I couldn't breathe", I say.
"Well what'd he say", he asked.
I look down not wanting to have to explain. Jake gets down on his knees grabs both my hands and looks into my eyes.
"It's just. Look one of the only reasons I thought I love Ryan was because he was there for me when I thought I was totally alone. Ryan pulled me away from Bree and Jovi and made me feel like I only had him. About six months ago my family and I were driving back from Cancun. We had made it through Texas and as we were passing Baton Rouge we got into a car accident ", I say as tears fall down. I have never talked about it and I can't.
"Look Britt if you don't want to you don't have to", Jake said pulling me into his arms.
"I want to it's hard", I say as he let's go of me.
"It's okay maybe one day. But for now I promised everyone I would stay and make sure you're okay", he said kidding the top of my head. "And you are so I'll leave you alone".
"No", I say as my breath hitched. "Don't leave me I can't sleep alone tonight".
He takes off his shirt turns off the light and lays next to me. He pulls me into his arms and I can breath again. 

"I will as long and as close as you want me to", he says.

I start dosing off and finally I am asleep.

Jake's POV

She falls asleep almost instantly. I just keep replaying the way she looked at me and I feel like I might be into her. I mean I gotta stay close she needs me. Us.

She starts squirming in my arms and then she starts sweating. I hold her tighter and then I get scared.

"Britt.... Britt...Britt please wake up", I tell her and she wakes up and cries. I don't say anything I have a lump in my throat and I just hold her. She cries into my chest. 

"It was just a dream that's it. You're okay I'm here", I say. I feel my face wet and I realize I'm crying.

She looks up at me with her red eyes and wipes my face.

"Jake I am so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you", she says.

"Beautiful you don't have to apologize you just have to give me a little smile", I say.

I hold her until she falls asleep.