Die A Virgin

10

Today my look was called- depression

I wore a black hoodie with matching black shirt shorts that unfortunately probably going to get dressed coded but at this point in my life I was miserable.

"Oh for fuck sake! Could you snap out of it" Chanel snapped at me, I ignored her as we got to my locker.

"Sav some help"

I slid on my headphones as frank ocean started blaring in my ears.

As soon as I knew it they were dragged out my ear vessels with an angry looking Chanel.

"If she wants to mope let her mope" Savannah popped her gum staring st the paint on the wall.

"What's up with you Sav?" I asked my bestfriend seeing as her usual witty, loving attitude turned into my current grump state.

"Shes just moody because stupid Brady has a new fuck Buddy"

I peeped Chanel's glare and Savannah's eye roll.

That kiss is never going to leave my mind

"Told you to leave the A-hole where he belongs. IN THE TRASH!" I almost screamed flicking Savannah in the ear.

"Who are you to give inspirational speeches, huh?! You've been acting like some depressed cat lady who just lost her favourite kitten in a shark attack but then was dragged to shore but killed by angry possums!"

Me and Chanel looked at eachother before looking at Savannah with open mouths, I started dying of laughter.

"What the actual fuck? Why so many descriptions and why possums I-" Chanel looked disgusted which caused me to die of laughter.

"I love you guys so much oh my goodness" I was still heaving

Chanel patted me on the back very roughly if I do say so myself.

I grabbed my books out my locker and Chanel was first to speak

"So are you back to normal?" Her eyebrow rose in that no funny business way

She meant was I over crying about Alec leaving, he left last week but it still felt weird the last time I talked to him when he was in his hotel in Germany three days ago.

I miss him so much

I felt like maybe that was the time to confess my true feeling, but it wouldn't exactly feel right.

I would've just hurt myself more to say allowed to Alec that I love him and then just watch him leave, crazy.

"Yes Nel, im Okay. If that's what you mean"

She swung her arm around Savannah and I before cheerily running through the school hallways.

"Good, because if you both were going to be moody I would've been stuck with Joseph" she said with a hint of disgust.

Savannah and I looked at eachother and laughed. "Oh yes Nel. God forbid that you ever spend alone time with your boyfriend"

"Shut up, Gel"

*****

"Look at that! My little babe isn't wearing something from an old pilgrim movie" max kissed my cheek

"Please don't before I catch some disease" I punched his shoulder as I chewed on the remains of my mash potatoes.

Max said something but I blocked it out as my phone decided to alert me of a message.

Alec💩❤️: Night beautiful🤓

It's lunch time here Alec but night loser, Ps. Still miss you🤮