you know what?
this book isn't me
i'm not me
who is me?
I already plan on throwing my life away
The only thing i'm good at is failing
My sister hates me
My mom hates me
My dads in prison
My stepdad is an asshole
I just be who people want me to be and i've only found 3 people from the time i've been born that I could really be myself around
One of those people I actually met on here, you read my books every time I update and you always make sure there is a comment spam, thanks for that btw
I'm dedicating this to you because you are amazing
Please never never change
And to the other two people, you know who you are
If I lose to me, then it'll be okay
I almost did the other day when my sister sent the picture of me smoking to my mom
I started smoking because of her because of her constant emotional abuse
She tells me how useless I am and how I should kill myself everyday
I know she's right, she'll always be right no matter what
If I don't make it past this age i'm at right know everything happens for a reason
Maybe i'm just not meant to be on this earth
I know i'm not meant to be on this earth
I've done horrible things that I couldn't tell anyone, not even the three, or maybe one of them maybe
But I am very thankful for you three because I can be myself around you guys, i'm not trapped
Thank you for existing :)
