last chapter :(
sophie's pov:
i'm currently lying in my bed staring at the ceiling thinking about how awful i am. i am an awful person. i broke her heart. i can't believe i broke her heart.
i need to win her back, even though i know i can't, i need to try. i will do anything to get her back. i don't expect her to take me back, but i have to try. i have to.
i thought about how to win her back, i then decided to make an apology video, confessing all the things i've done and hopefully that will be enough to win her back.
i brought out my camera and set it up. i sat in front of it and turned it on.
"hey guys," i said, "i did something awful. i will never be able to forgive myself. but before i tell you what it is, you need some back story." i sighed, "i met ethan dolan a little over a year ago, and my life has never been the same. i fell in love with him for his face and his body, i didn't know him as a person until we collabed and i fell in love even more. but i don't think he ever truly loved me back. looking back he never once went out of his way to do anything for me. i would've done anything for her, i drove myself crazy trying to keep him around. i then realized he was only with me for the fame. it really hurt my heart to know that and i couldn't accept that. i had a perfect image of him in my brain that i could get out, i only recently realized how imperfect he truly is. now i met emma chamberlain a little less than a year ago, i've had a crush on her since the day i met her. i love the way her hair falls over her shoulders, i love the way her eyes twinkle in the light, i love her smile, and i love her soul. we began dating a month ago, it was the best month of my life. i love her so much, i would do anything for her. but i went and threw all of it away. i cheated on her with ethan, i regret it. i really do, i don't know why i did it. maybe i did it as a goodbye, maybe i did it because the perfect image is still engraved in my brain, but whatever the reason was, it shattered emma's heart. i will never forgive myself, i will forever hate myself and i know there is nothing i can do to fix this. but i need her to know that i love her. and if she lets me, i am willing to do anything to fix her broken heart."
i turned off the camera and sighed. i uploaded it to my computer and edited it a bit. i then uploaded it to youtube. after it posted i lay back in my bed and covered my face with my hands. lets hope she sees it.
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it's been 2 hours since i posted it and the video is blowing up. people are either hating on me or supporting me but i honestly don't care. i'm just waiting for emma to respond.
suddenly i heard a knock on my door, i ran downstairs, i was hoping it was emma.
i opened the door to reveal emma. i tried not to grin just in case she was going to reject me again.
"sophie," she said, looking deeply into my eyes, "i really liked your video, i'm really sorry i didn't hear you out. i understand why you did it and i'm willing to give you another chance. but it's going to take a while before i can trust you again."
i smiled, "i love you emma, but you don't have to understand, i was a dick and i'll never forgive myself. but i really want to make things right."
"well you can do that after you kiss me," she said grinning.
i giggled and wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her towards me. i kissed her softly and passionately.
i'm never letting her go again.
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awww noooo it's overrrrrrr! don't worry tho because i'm starting a new story! i don't know what it's going to be called lol
