Here I Am, There You Are (All Time Low Fanfiction | Jack Barakat)

Here I Am, There You Are Pt. 6

Usually when I make plans at 5, it means I'll probably be there at 4:40. The latest I would be was on time. This time, however, I was only arriving at 9. Somehow my amazing track record was ruined and my average arrival time was shifted to late so drastically. Surprisingly or not, I wasn't late to work. No, it was work that had made me late. I always did everything to make sure I wasn't late to work, and now it was the one thing that could have ruined my entire week.

Once nine o'clock came rolling around, I was leaving a taxi with a duffle bag hanging from my shoulder and my handbag awkwardly balancing on top of the duffle bag's strap. Honestly, I felt like a teenager leaving my best friend's house after a sleepover. Only, I was much older than a teenager, and I was coming back from work. Although, you could technically say that I was going to go to a sleepover.

Other than being late, work also left me in an inappropriate outfit for the situation. First of all, heels. Completely open heels. They were okay for sitting in meetings for an entire day, but not for what was to come. Along with those heels I was wearing some dark blue high waisted dress pants. The shirt wasn't too bad, it was a white t-shirt, but I was also wearing a blazer that matched with the pants. It truly was the perfect outfit for work, which meant it was the worst outfit for a concert.

Music was already booming from inside the venue. The queue outside was already long gone, the only people still outside only being there to clean up the trash that people had left behind. I rolled my eyes, remembering the many times I would freak out on the guys when they left their trash outside when we were waiting to get into a concert back in high school. But, hey, what can you do. Nobody wants to lose their spot to go to the bin.

I went to the back entrance to find nothing but a closed door. Originally, there was going to be somebody waiting to greet me and take me inside, but once again I was way too late for that. Everybody was busy doing their jobs. I was going to have to call Jack so either he could let me in or he could find somebody else to let me in. But my phone was somewhere at the bottom of my bag, so it was a real struggle. Before I started swearing and getting too annoyed, I happened to notice somebody in the hallway inside through the small window at eye-height in the door.

I knocked on the window loudly and waved to get her attention. She looked up at me and I recognised her as the first supporting act's lead singer. At first, she looked very confused, but I beckoned for her to come over, hoping I wasn't coming over as too creepy. Luckily, she came over and opened the door, but she did the right thing not opening it too far and letting me in.

"Hi?" She said with much confusion.

"Hi," I sighed in relief. "I'm sorry, I promise I'm not a crazy fan trying to get backstage. I'm Jack's girlfriend." She continued to stare at me, making me realise that 'Jack' could literally be anybody. I quickly clarified, "Jack Barakat."

"Oh, umm..." She still seemed skeptical and glanced inside to see if there was anybody who could help her, but nobody was there.

"You have no reason to believe me," I said to show I knew and understood her fear. "I'd call him, but I literally can't find my phone right now. I could... umm... you could check his instagram? I'm on there."

"Okay, yeah, I'll check." She pulled out her phone from her back pocket.

I apologised when she unlocked it and opened the app. She searched for Jack's profile and tapped on it before scrolling through the images. We went past many images, making my case look very bad. I could tell she didn't really believe me anymore, if she ever did. Even I would have doubted myself. But then she happened to scroll past a post Jack had put up on our anniversary, which was also Alex's and Lisa's anniversary. We were very unsure about posting anything on that day, not wanting to take away from their special day, but they said it didn't matter.

"Hang on. There!" I exclaimed with a bit too much excitement, making her go back to the post.

"That's you?" She still seemed unconvinced as she zoomed into the photo.

"Yeah," I nodded, knowing it wasn't an all too great photo since it was from quite a distance and my hair was a lot longer. "I should be tagged in it. If not, he's got some explaining to do."

But, when she tapped on the photo, my username popped up. She tapped on it and opened my profile. There, it looked a lot more like me. I also had a few more photos with Jack posted on mine than Jack had on his of me. The only reason I didn't tell her to go to my profile first was because I could have easily taken them at some meet and greet or used some amazing photoshop skills, which both weren't the case, but still.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry," she apologised when she realised I was telling the truth and nothing but the truth, and let me in.

"No, it's cool. Better safe than sorry. I could have been a fan with an elaborate plan," I told her.

"Okay, well, I've got to go into the opposite direction, but All Time Low's dressing room is just down the hall, to the right, and then three doors down. There's also signs when you go to the right, so don't worry too much about finding your way around."

I thanked her and we parted ways. Although I could remember the directions she gave me, I followed the signs all the way to the dressing room. The boys were getting ready to play their shows. They all had their clothes on and were busy getting their in-ear monitors ready. It was only half an hour until they had to be on stage.

"Hey, it's Rachel!" Alex was the first to notice me enter the doorway.

Jack immediately perked up and looked up over Zack's shoulder, who he was helping with the in-ear monitors.

"Hey, guys, I'm so sorry I'm so awfully late," I apologised despite the fact that I knew I hadn't inconvenienced them and had kept Jack up to date through brief texts. "I'm just going to go change and let you guys finish what you're doing."

"Wait," Jack stopped me, his hands still on the Zack's jean's waistband to attach the box. "Have you had dinner yet?"

Originally, Jack and I were going to go out for dinner together. He had made reservations and everything. It would have meant that we would have missed the first support act, but we would have been back way sooner than I came. However, that plan obviously fell through. Instead, he went and had that dinner with Rian because it would have been a waste of a reservation otherwise.

"No, I haven't had time to even think about food today. But I have..." I shook my head and looked into my handbag. I had brought a lunch with me to work and was assuming that I had brought it with me. But I had left it in the fridge at work. "... a mini KitKat. I'll be fine."

After that, I slipped into the bathroom and stripped off the clothes I had been wearing for over twelve hours. Now was my time to put on a concert-ready outfit, or also known to me as some normal clothing. I pulled on my ripped blue jeans and a dark gray t-shirt before discarding my heels for some black vans. There was no real reason to dress up or think too much about it. Next, I brushed my hair, deciding it was too messy and putting it up in a ponytail, and then just took off all my makeup. My skin needed to breathe. I tried to be as quick as possible, knowing that it was only a matter of time until they had to move to the stage.

When I came back into the dressing room, the boys were done with helping each other. They were now playing some loud music through their large speakers. Alex was doing his silly dancing, Rian was sitting on one of the couches tapping along to the music, and Zack felt the need to do some pushups. And Jack? Well, Jack was stood at the microwave pulling out a styrofoam box.

He grabbed a fork from a container and made his way over to me, giving it all to me. "Here, eat this. I was keeping it for myself for later, but you need it more."

I opened the take-away box and saw some delicious looking pasta from the restaurant we were supposed to go to. "Thank you." I quickly pecked him on the lips before digging in.

"Ugh," Alex groaned in disgust. I looked at him to see his scrunched up nose and dirty look was directed at me and Jack.

"What? Can't deal with a little minor PDA?" I commented while still eating my pasta.

"No, I can deal with it, but you guys..." he visibly shivered on purpose and pulled the same face again. "I'm used to you acting all close, you even did that back in high school. But you guys kissing and knowing you guys– you guys– It's like knowing my parents–" He added a faking gagging noise.

"Well, deal with it," Jack retorted and wrapped and arm around my waist for emphasis. "She's here for a week and I'm going to be making sweet sweet love to her."

"Sweet sweet love," I repeated in a singsong voice just to watch Alex squirm.

"You guys disgust me. Keep that out of my face," Alex said sternly, but I could tell he was just joking. He liked me and Jack together, he had made that clear many times before.

I continued to stuff the pasta into my mouth to try and finish it on time. It wasn't long until they were going to go side stage. I didn't want to bring it with me, but I did want to finish it. Although I wasn't hungry before, one bite rejigged my stomach and it started sending messages to my brain again to eat. Once I finished it, I put it to the side and remembered one last thing I wanted to wear to hide the mess that was my hair.

I pulled out a black baseball cap with a logo on the front of it and showed it to Jack. "You might not remember this, but I stole this from you."

"Really?" He took it out of my hands and inspected it with a frown. I could see him trying to imagine the rack he had in his closet for all his caps to see where it could be missing from. "Are you sure?"

"Blink concert, summer 2005," I stated, but he still didn't seem to remember. "You dragged me out super early because you wanted to get good places and nobody else was able to go so early. We had to stand out in the sun for hours. I was dying and starting to get a sunburn, so you gave me your hat to help save my face. I never gave it back and wore it a lot during first year of college."

"I remember now," he grinned and put the hat on my head. "That was the day before I developed a humongous crush on you. My sister asked me about the concert and she planted these thoughts in my head that made me overthink everything."

"No... really?" I tried thinking back to the weeks afterwards, but couldn't recall ever thinking that Jack had feelings for me. Usually, I was very good at knowing when guys would crush on me in high school, but I only knew about the brief time Jack had a schoolboy crush on me for a week during freshman year.

"Yeah, but I knew you were crushing on Chris Feltner, and you guys dated for–"

"We dated until first year of college." I nodded, realising I maybe had been too obsessed with my own feelings to realise how one of my best friend's was feeling. "I know."

"Well, suck it Feltner, guess who's got the girl now!" Jack shouted in triumph before going in for a proper kiss.

I jumped when a flash went off and turned to see a girl with a camera standing in the doorway. She was smiling brightly and gushed, "that's so cute."

"You scared me," I breathed out in shock and held a hand to my heart.

"Oh, shit, I'm sorry," she excused. "I should have asked to take your picture before."

"Oh, no, it's cool," I quickly told her so she wouldn't feel guilty. "I just didn't see you there. No, you can take my picture if you like. I believe I actually have an old photo from 2005 of the two of us with me wearing this hat. It's a nice comparison."

"Rachel often makes me take pictures of her, you're all good," Jack added with a chuckle.

"Like you don't make me take hundreds of different photos just for you to choose one to send to your mom," I retorted.

"But I'm not embarrassed about it, I don't give a shit."

"I don't give a shit either." I winked.

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Visiting Jack on tour wasn't nearly as rowdy as most people would expect. They weren't twenty-one-year-olds enjoying their rising fame by partying twenty-four-seven anymore. Yes, they still liked their fun and their drinks, but it wasn't over excessive. I managed to avoid alcohol the entire time I was there. Well, except for one night. One dreadful night. Karaoke night.

You see, I didn't sing. I would never do what Alex did and sing in front of large crowds. Quite simply, I didn't want to do so and I wasn't good enough to do it either. But I could hold a note. I was good enough to be one of the few people who didn't suck at karaoke, but I could never be an actual singer. If I took some serious vocal coaching, I probably could have. But like I said before, I had no desire to do. I liked singing in the shower, that was it.

So, when the guys decided to go out to a karaoke bar, I was dragged into it. We had to be back by 4am to get on the bus and leave to the next venue, but that didn't mean the guys didn't want to go out. It was actually relatively late compared to other nights when we had to leave immediately after everything was packed up again.

At this karaoke bar, more than just a few drinks were poured. I managed to stay away from it at first. The first round bought by Alex was beer, which I got out of. My glass was replaced with a glass of coke. I also managed to miss out on the shots of tequila and a round of mixed drinks. While the boys were very understanding when sober (and when I say 'understanding', I mean they would eventually give in and let me have my way), they would be less so when the alcohol started flowing.

Jack had bought everybody a round a vodka shots. This time, however there was an extra glass and that glass came in my direction. I refused. I absolutely refused, but Jack just wiggled his eyebrows when took did his own. Even when they started chanting my name and got a few strangers to join in, I still stood my ground. But Jack wouldn't give up. He was tempting me. At one point, I almost took it, but I stopped myself. It all went well until Jack picked up my shot and poured it into my glass of coke. He winked and convinced me that that one drink wouldn't hurt over the rest of the night.

But he was wrong. Very wrong.

It must have been around 5am when things went downhill for me. At first, Jack had kept saying 'I told you so' when I got no headache and felt fine. But it was so different just an hour or so later. The bus was moving, shaking us lightly. I was pressed up against the wall in Jack's bunk, Jack taking up most of the space beside me. My head was pounding when I woke up.

"Jack," I groaned, trying to push him out of the way so I could get some more breathing space. It felt like I had a horse putting all it's weight on my forehead. "Jack," I repeated again when he didn't budge.

"What," he grumbled back and shifted like half an inch.

That's when the pain got so bad that it started messing with my stomach. "I'm so nauseous."

"You okay?" he asked, seemingly a bit more awake than before, but his voice still full of sleep.

Part of me wanted to cuddle up against him and bury my head into his neck to help with the pain, but another part of me wanted him to get as far away from me as possible. "This is your fault."

"Do you want some painkillers?"

"No," I told him despite the fact I actually most definitely wanted some, but something else was on my mind first. "I'm going to be sick."

"Right now?" He was definitely awake now. This was a wakeup call. He started to shuffle out of the bunk.

"I can't move." I managed to breathe out while I was trying to keep everything down, clutching my head tightly. I really didn't want to throw up all over Jack's bunk. One, it was our sleeping place, and two it would be a bitch to clean up.

"Oh, shit," he sighed and sat up, not leaving the bunk.

I wasn't the only one who knew the severity of how bad this was. Last time this happened, I threw up all over Jack's bedroom floor and passed out from my headache. He was afraid I was going to choke on my own vomit, but that didn't even come close to happening. That time I had only had some wine with dinner.

"Umm, take this." He pulled out a plastic bag he had in a small compartment at the end of his bunk. "Just in case."

Just because I had that plastic bag, did not mean that I was immediately going to throw up. Jack ran his fingers through my hair, both to comfort me and to easily hold it back if needed. I concentrated on breathing so the worst wouldn't happen. Honestly, I would do anything for it not to get to the point. It wasn't that the alcohol made me throw up, it was my headache caused by the alcohol that made me nauseous.

"Maybe we should go to the back?" Jack suggested when he realised I was doing my best to stay composed. "You can look outside there, it might help."

I nodded, not trusting myself to open my mouth to say anything. This time he did get out of his bunk, opening the curtain and revealing that all the lights were also off in the hallway. I was glad they were, I couldn't imagine being able to stand light right at that moment. Jack waited for me to slowly crawl out. Just sitting up made my head spin.

"You go already, I'll grab some water and painkillers." He reached out to push the button to open the door to the back lounge and went in the opposite direction.

I somehow made it onto one of the couches while keeping my eyes nearly closed and holding tightly onto my head. The movement of sitting down nearly made me vomit, but I managed to stop it from happening. I sat with my legs up, looking out at the highway we were on. It was dark outside except for the occasional streetlight. The pain was so unbearable that tears involuntarily slipped out of my tear ducts.

"Here." Jack handed me a water bottle and two pills before going back to his bunk and taking his pillow and duvet to the back lounge. He closed the door behind himself so we wouldn't accidentally wake anybody up, which we surprisingly hadn't done yet.

"Thanks," I responded in a very shaky voice and downed some water to chase the painkillers.

Jack pushed another button that made the couch extend horizontally. He grabbed a throw blanket from a cupboard in the room and took it for himself while he gave me the bedding. "We'll just sleep here tonight. I also brought some melatonin in case you aren't able to sleep."

I thanked him yet again and waited for him to lie down beside me. Once he got comfortable, one arm behind his head, I put my head on his chest and closed my eyes.

"I'm sorry," he apologised, wrapping and arm around me and trailing his fingers over my side. "I promise to never put alcohol in your drink again. If anything, I'll keep you away from it."

"I love you," I whispered and accepted his apology. I couldn't hold a grudge against him.