I've been losing my mind and letting my self go completely. For the past couple of weeks I've been doing hardcore drugs constantly. If it wasn't coke then I'd take Percocet's back to back. If I wasn't popping pills then I'd snort coke all day or I'd just smoke cigarettes, I was going insane. I haven't seen Marcell or Royalty in so long and I missed my babies so much. I even missed Tiana, every time I thought about her I'd go into a deep depression because I know about the tragic pain I put her through. So I just keep using drugs to suppress my feelings and keep that shit off my mind.
•11:55 pm•
I laid in the darkness of my bedroom and just looked up at the ceiling. The moonlight filled my room as I breathed in the toxic fumes in my room.
All you could smell was cigarettes, the strong fumes of coke polluting my room, and sex.
I turned to my left and seen the girl I met at the club sleeping next to me.
I needed to get up from here because I needed my fix.
When I turned to the right I spotted another girl who I could barely recognize. One of these bitches are gonna have to get the fuck up because this is some bullshit.
The bathroom was on my left side so I decided to push the bitch on the left off my bed so I can get up.
"Ow What The Fuck?!" The girl yelled
I rolled my eyes and got off the bed "You was in my way, so I moved yo ass"
"You could've said excuse me"
I looked at the bitch and chuckled "Bitch this my crib, if you gotta problem then you can leave"
She sighed and hopped back into the bed. Now that's what the fuck I thought.
I walked over to the bathroom and shut the door. My sink counter was filthy with cocaine and pills, I would go all out and take everything but I still got something worth living for.
"What should I take tonight? A few lines? Or two or three pills? Fuck it..."
I looked at the small pile of cocaine and sectioned it into four sections.
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Each line I sniffed gave me a different feeling. When I made it to the third line my nostril began to burn so I switched nostrils to finish it out.
With the last line I looked up in the mirror to see that my nose was bleeding. I quickly got some tissue and wiped the blood and the white residue from my nose.
I sighed to myself "Fuck....I must've sniffed to damn hard."
I laughed it off and walked out of the bathroom and walked over to the bed. I noticed one of the girls was still up and she was watching me with her big brown eyes.
