I wish
I could just
find
silence
there's buzzing in my skin
I hear whispers in my head
I'm so overwhelmed
I wish I could just be dead
I wish
I could just
find
silence
when will this feeling
of void
go away?
I want to feel my own smile,
but all I feel is numbness
I wish
I could just
find
silence
my feelings are a front
a mimic
an act
Because I feel nothing
while I hear demon bones crack
I wish
I could just
find
silence
I beg my brain to stop
to stop making me this way
I beg to feel the bubbles of joy, the weight of sadness, I want to hear my own sobs
Not some false action that I've mastered
I wish
I could just
find
silence
I can't be touched, I can't feel my own skin, I am but a spectator — watching some puppet on strings wearing my face, forcing my smile;
all I feel is silence.
