How to Save a Life ~ Jolby

1.

Jake's P.O.V.

Colby has been very distant with everyone, especially me. I just hope I didn't do anything to upset him, I would never want to do that to him our friendship is the most important thing to me and I don't want to screw that up. "Jake" I hear Sam yell from the kitchen. I walk down to see what he needed.
(S=Sam J=Jake)
J-"Yeah bro what's up?"
S-"Have you tried to talk to Colby recently, he won't talk to me he says the only person he wants to talk to would hate him, I'm assuming it's you since he is most distant from you."
J-"I haven't tried to talk to him, I'm pretty tired right now but I will talk to him in the morning. Night bro"
S-"Okay sleep good"
J-"Will do

Colby's P.O.V.

I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling, I've been crying for a while now. I'm not even hurt anymore I'm just numb. I just hope Jake is happy with whoever he dates, even though it won't be me he's straight and even if he wasn't why would he want to date me. I know he will be happy. As I looked up to the white surface above me I fall into a deep sleep hoping in the morning all my feelings and emotions are gone and I'm happy again.

Time skip (p.o.v. still Colby)
I woke up around two in the morning because of a crash I heard downstairs, I decided it was probably nothing and got up to go to the bathroom, (TW mentions of suicide) I see myself in the mirror and the person that looks back at me is completely different then the me I know. My eyes have dark circles underneath them my stomach is slowly shrinking from not eating much, my mind starts to wander.
You should just end it all nobody would miss you.
You know what their right I will, I'm going to kill myself. I walked back to my room and started writing my note to everyone I love.

Jake's P.O.V.
I heard someone walking around upstairs and since I was already awake I thought I would go check it out, it was Colby. I knock on his door and he doesn't answer, I start to get worried when I hear small cries coming from inside. I open the door and see Colby with a note next to him and a bottle of pills, I run over to him and hug him he immediately hugs back and starts to cry more, "I'm so fucking sorry I'm like this" he says while in tears.
J-"Shhhh it's going to be okay just talk to me, what's going on"
C-"If I tell you, you're going to hate me."
J-"Colby I could never hate you."
C-"Fine, here goes nothing. I like you no scratch that I love you and I know you're straight and could never love me back but here I am spilling my guts to you. Now you can go back to bed and forget about me."

Jake's P.O.V.
I can't believe this he likes me too, but I could never date a guy, my family would disown me and I can't have that happen.
J-"Colby I could never hate you, I don't really know if I'm straight but I could never date a guy because my family would disown me. I do like you like that and I have for a while but I just can't be with you, I'm so sorry."
C-"Get out."
J-"Colby I-"
C-"I said get out, now!"
And with that I left and went back to my room, I started to cry the second I hit my bed, why am I so stupid I had a chance to be with him and I fucked it up.

Colby's P.O.V.
He likes me but he can't date guys, what the hell is that supposed to mean, I don't get him. I guess I will go to sleep while I still can and talk to Sam about it tomorrow.

Well guys I hope that wasn't too bad of a first chapter but I'm trying okay I haven't ever done anything like this.