Breaking Point [Izuku X Depressed!Reader]

Part 3

(TW: Yelling, Mentions of Self Harm, Suicide)

The closer you got to the greenette's house the more anxious you got, doubts clouded your mind and before you knew it you were standing at his doorstep. You took a deep breath and shook your hands out before knocking at the door "Just a moment!~" You smiled softly when you heard Inko's sweet voice, you could hear her approaching the door so you adjusted your posture, "What may i- Oh! (Y/n), what a pleasant surprise!" "Hello aunty Inko. How have you been?" Inko chuckled softly and let you in with a warm smile, "I've been well. How have you and your parents been?" You smiled, your parents always liked Inko, they were close. "They're doing pretty well,they actually left for a business trip not too long ago." "Oh that's a shame I would've liked to see them before they left, when will they be back?" "Well they said they'll be back in about three weeks." "Oh my! That's almost a month! You know if you ever need company you can visit whenever you like." You smiled and nodded "Thank you auntie." "It's nothing really. I'm assuming you came to visit Izuku?" "Mhm! He actually invited me over." Inko nodded and smiled "He's in his room, just be careful, wouldn't want you getting sick too." She chuckled playfully. (Y/n) nodded and walked towards Izuku's room.

Knock knock knock

"It's open!" You slowly opened the door, your eyes landing on the boy. He was sitting at his desk, his back turned to you. You caught a glimpse of what he was looking at on his desktop, he had a post up from a social media site. The post consisted of pictures of Alexa showing her arms to Kaminari, there were a couple of close ups on her arms and face too. You're heart dropped. This wasn't going to go well. "Sit down and explain." He said sternly, he didn't even bother looking at you. You didn't sit down but you did try to explain, "Izuku I didn't do it. We were in the woods but all we did was talk!" If you could call being pushed down and bullied 'talking', "I would never hurt her." He didn't answer, his eyes were glued to the screen, "'Zuku, please, you have to believe m-" He cut you off "Liar." "What." "The entire class knows how you feel about her." he said sharply as he turned to face you. "We all knew you hated her, we never understood why. She's so nice and sweet and funny. She wouldn't do anything to hurt yo-" "Shut up." "Excuse me?" "I said shut up!" You yelled "You don't know anything about her. She uses people and manipulates them into thinking she's a good person, she isn't! She's a god awful person, she hates me! She hurt me! She will use you, hurt you, and throw you awa-" "SHUT UP!" Izuku looked at you furiously. "You have no right to talk about her like that much less use your quirk on her!"

You flinched, he never raised his voice at you much less shout at you. "You know how deadly that poison can be! I always knew you were dangerous but this," He gestured to the screen, "This is too far!" ""Zuku please I'm your friend, I wouldn't do this and you know it! I'm trying to protect yo-" "We are not friends,(L/N). The minute you scratched her we became nothing." "Izuk-" "Get out." "Izuku pleas-" "I SAID GET OUT!" You bit your lip and nodded holding back your tears. The minute you walked out and closed the door you were greeted by a hug which you gladly accepted, "Oh, honey i'm so sorry" Inko whispered as you cried into her shoulder, "I believe you, sweetheart. Just give it some time and everything will be ok." She continued to stroke your hair until you stopped crying.

After the argument with Izuku you knew that you wouldn't hold up for long. After all you never really had stable coping skills. So when your ex best friend decided to side with your bully and declared your guys's friendship over you turned to your favorited 'Coping skill'. Cutting.

At this point the feeling of a blade piercing through your skin was more comforting than that of the company of the people around you. The rest of the day was awful, but the blade made it all feel a little better.

The next day was even worse than the last. Everyone knew about it and now everyone hated you, the entire class knew multiple students from the other classes also knew. Of course the teachers knew nothing of the situation but a couple were getting suspicious as to where their student was getting all their bruises and cuts. You knew that the third day would be the worst since everyone in your class knew that the third day was the last day to get the antidote. They called in sick and decided that she'd find peace that day, their absence did not go unnoticed, multiple students were more worried for Alexa but Izuku, Ochako and Katsuki formulated a plan to get the antidote their 'wounded' classmate needed.

"(L/N), open the goddamn door" "(L/N) please Alexa needs the antidote!" "(L/N) please let us in!" No response and after a while of knocking and begging for you to let them in Katsuki grew tired and busted the door open. "Alright extras search the area." Katsuki instructed, they looked all over the house until they made it to the bathroom, Ochako called (Y/n)'s name out and slowly walked towards the door. She peeked inside, "OH MY GOD! (Y/N)!" she exclaimed, she quickly rushed inside and checked for a pulse. You were on the bathroom floor, your pill bottle just next to your cold hand. A couple of pills laid on the floor along with a small vile of blood, "Call an ambulance, NOW!" Ochako screamed at the two boys, Katsuki quickly pulled out his phone and dialed 911 while Izuku helped Ochako carry you to the living room. The ambulance arrived at the house soon after the call and loaded you into the ambulance. The truck drove off to the hospital leaving three distraught teenagers behind.

You woke up a day later, your head felt fuzzy and your eyelids were incredibly heavy, when you opened your eyes white was the only thing you saw, you kind of just assumed you were dead until your senses started rushing back. Your head was pounding, you felt like you had been sucker punched in the stomach and your throat felt very sore. You felt how cold the room was, goosebumps littered your scar filled arm, but there was warmth. When you looked down you saw a head full of dark green curls and that was all your suspicions had been confirmed.

You had failed.

Tears started to fill your eyes until they finally spilled, your nose burned as you sobbed, you were shaking badly. It was so bad that it woke the greenette, "Huh...?" He lifted his head sleepily and saw that you were awake "You're awake!" He cried as he hugged you, he soon realized you were crying "Hey, hey. Why are you crying?" He asked as he attempted to wipe your tears away, you slapped his hand away "Don't you fucking get it? I failed!" Izuku flinched at your outburst. "I'm so pathetic I can't even successfully kill myself!" You yelled trying your hardest to keep your voice from cracking as sobs racked through your fragile body.

He tried to hug you but you just kept pushing him away, "Don't you dare touch me! You aren't my friend!". Izuku's eyes were filled with hurt, "Of course we're friends, (Y/N)" "No, no you don't get to call me by my name, it's (Y/N) to you, Midoriya.". That statement seemed to have broken through him, tears slid down his cheeks, "You said it yourself." "That was before I knew Alexa lying!" "You should have known! You knew I wouldn't have done anything like that! You knew that if I did I wouldn't have been able to poison her because I'm allergic to CITRUS!". Izuku knew he fucked up, he knew he did but he didn't want to admit it to himself.

"I'm sorry."

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Mmm, angst. I love it lol. ~ Oblivion