Breaking Point [Izuku X Depressed!Reader]

Part 4

(TW: Mentions of Attempted Suicide, Smoking, Self Harm)

A couple weeks have pasted since you attempted suicide and it seemed almost as if it had never happened, at least Alexa was gone. You were getting worse by the day and it showed a lot in your training. You were reckless, Mr.Aizawa told you so and so did your parents but you were fine, at least that's what you let people believe. Cutting was a daily routine now and although you were prescribed antidepressants you stopped taking them. The fact that you had to rely on medication to feel better sickened you, it was bothersome "If I have to rely on medication it makes me a liability."

Nowadays you have a bracelet with blades taped to the inside, it's something you refuse to take off even during training, your phone is also something you keep with you at all times. "Hey (Y/n) let's go to the corner store after school!" Ochako suggested, you stayed quiet but nodded and smiled anyway. After lunch you got the urge to cut but you couldn't leave just yet so you fidgeted with your bracelet and once you got the chance you asked to be excused. You rushed to the bathrooms and ran into a stall, you loosened the bracelet enough for you to wiggle your finger underneath and get a blade out, you rolled your sleeve up, the blade hovered over your arm when "(Y/n)?". You dropped your blade in surprise but quickly picked it up, cutting yourself in the process, "Yes?" you squeaked cringing at your voice, "I thought you left. Are we still on for after school?" "Mhm." You hummed in confirmation the brunette giggled and exited the bathroom. You sighed in relief before gazing down at your blade, "That was close.".

After a couple of minutes you walked out of the restroom with 15 new cuts, but for whatever reason you felt unsatisfied. As the two of you walked to the corner store Ochako tried to strike up a conversation, "So have you've been?" "Good." And at that moment Ochako knew the conversation would go nowhere so she stopped immediately. Soon you guys arrived at the store and separated to find a slushy machine. You wandered through the aisles of the store but something caught your eye. It was a pack of cheap cigarettes. Still worried about getting caught you looked around to see if there were any cameras in the area and to your surprise there weren't. You nervously reached out to take the pack until Ochako squealed, "I found it!". You sighed and smiled to yourself as you stuffed two packs into your blazer before making your way towards Ochako. "They only have Cherry, Blueberry and cola." "Um, I'll try the cola flavored one.". Ochako ended up getting the cherry flavored slush and they left with two slushies and cigarettes.

The two students walked to a park where Uraraka tried to strike up conversations but failed miserably. Eventually they started walking towards the brunette's apartment. When they got to the complex the bubbly girl turned to (Y/N), "If you want you can come in." (Y/N) smiled and waved her off, "No no, I really should be getting home." Ochako pouted "Dang, well I had fun today hopefully we can do it again soon. I'll see you at school?" "Yeah.".

After the brunette entered the building (Y/N) started peeling the plastic off the cigarette box while walking towards their house. They examined the box before opening it and sniffing the cigarettes. They shrugged and pulled one out, they reached into their pocket and pulled out their lighter. (Y/N) took a drag and immediately went into a coughing fit afterwards. Their eyes watered and stung, their throat burned, not to mention that god awful taste and smell, but it without a doubt filled them with satisfaction.

It's been a few weeks since you had that one cigarette and safe to say you had way more after that one. Your self harming tendencies have been a little more prominent and out of control, though your entire class and your parents still believed that you were fine, that is until you were caught.

It had rained the previous day and the smell of dampened dirt still hung in the air. You were about to leave your house, your board ready at your feet while you locked your front door. You had a lit cigarette resting firmly in between your lips. You were ready to push off and ride onto the sidewalk, "(Y/N)!?". You jumped slightly, losing balance and stumbling back. Your cigarette fell onto the ground. You looked over to the source of the voice and felt your heart drop when you realized who it was. "What are you doing here, Bakugo?" You ask trying to ignore the way he stared at you. "Seriously (L/n)! These things will kill you!" You shrugged, "And?" You couldn't say much you couldn't really trust your voice at that moment. "You ungrateful ass bitch! You make me wish pink cheeks never fucking found you! You pathetic loser!" You felt yourself stiffen at his harsh words, he seemed surprised with himself too. " Fuck! I-shit. I didn't me-", You cut him off. " What's done is done...I'll see you in class, Bakugo." You got onto your skateboard and pushed off before he could grab you. Tears stung your eyes as you skated to your school.

Does he really think that...?

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Well damn Baku-Bitch, way to go ~ Oblivion