Sanem POV
I am Sanem Can Divit! Wife of the well known photographer Can Divit. Mother of his 3 children. Having the most perfect life of traveling the world with him and our kids. Having a beautiful house back home in Istanbul. Having a successful writing career myself. Basically I have every thing a woman wants but what happens when life gets to monotonous. What happens when the marriage just goes on like a daily routine? The spark what was there at first now history! The excitement finished! Love faded! 12 years into our marriage and I'm not sure if we should still go ahead!!
I have sent the kids to Leyla and Emre's place so I can talk to Can quietly. He comes home from work, telling him I have sent the kids to Emre's, I set the table for our dinner. He is busy eating while I'm watching him.
Can, we need to talk! I say
Hmm; he replies
I wonder if we need a divorce; I say and he chokes on his food.
Drinking water, he looks at me wide eyed; What?
You heard it, I think we should get a divorce; I repeated
Why, everything is so perfect Sanem! Why do you want a divorce? Can was totally clueless
Can, don't you think our marriage is too monotonous, its like the excitement, spark and love all gone! I say
Sanem, askim I love you; Can replied
Yes Can I know but I can't feel it! I mean you work, eat, sleep, play with our kids and then it back on repeat. There is no us anymore; I say
Are you talking about sex? Because hayatim we made love last night; can said
Are you serious, Can, seriously, do you think when I talk about excitement and spark I mean sex!! I was annoyed now
What else is it supposed to mean? I thought it means that; can replies
I'm talking about the initial love and spark we had when we just met, its all faded, its like you don't care about me anymore; I say
Sanem, have I kept you anything less; he says
No; I answer
Have I ever cheated on you; he asks
No, never; I say
Have I hurt you? He asks
No; I reply
Then why do you want a divorce! He asked horrified
I told you everything is getting too monotonous! I said
Sanem do you want to change the home décor, maybe the change will be good; he says clueless again
Can!!! I am talking about you and me!!! Its like everything is just an habit now no energy in it; I say as I too am not sure how to explain.
Making me wonder what's my problem, well that's the problem that Can doesn't see the problem which makes it an even bigger problem!! He thinks every thing is cool. But I don't think so.
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Hello friends I'm really not sure how this has come out. I made this really short as I'm wondering if its good enough to continue. Please do let me know what you all think and whether I should head further. Thank you❤
