Giving It My All

That Maybe

I like him.

That's all I know.

But I guess he just don't care at all.

I met him when I was 3 years old, he was 7 back then. His parents and my parents have this sort of dance troupe. They made the group when they are in high school. And they are still friends I guess. Anyway, so they have this kind of reunion every year. Like, they have a gathering and they all bring their children, including me and my brother.

He is the shy type. I heard he don't want to even try to make friends with anyone. He's so isolated. But when me, mom, dad, and my brother came, he started to loosen up a bit. I saw him sitting on the corner and I just said it, this is it.

I know I am young and don't even know what's the difference between their and they're, but god, he's just so cute. Like, ugh damn it.

So, I sat on the opposite corner because I just really wanna stare at him all night.

While our parents are doing their own things, we kids are playing. And one thing is for sure, I wanna shout at my brother that time. He's already fucking talking to the boy. Okay, I know I'm over reacting or something but ugh, why can't I just do that. My brother is seven too, so they really get along well.

We only live once, they say. So I always thought, I wanna live a life without regrets. And that is something that motivated me so much, specially in him.

The reunion is only once a year. We are in different schools, because when I was in grade school, we live in different cities. But when my brother is in high school, they started to attend the same school, but of course, I am still stuck in grade school.

But my point is, we barely see each other. Like in a year, if I saw him somewhere else than that reunion, I'll consider the whole year lucky. So I make everY year worth it. I chased him.

I always made sure he's not lonely.

I made sure, it's only me.

I made sure that I am the only one for him to look at, to cuddle with and to love.

But fuck, I guess we're just really not meant to be.

Because he's dating someone.

I regret it, yes. Because thinking about it now, I'm always busy checking up on him, that I always forget that I needed to check myself too.

That I needed to check my heart.

Because, focusing on someone is one of the worst things you could do. I always want to assume things and I always ended up with nothing.

I ended with nothing.

But, I wanna be positive. I want to think that maybe there's going to be plot twist. Maybe it's still us until the end. Maybe he don't really like the girl, maybe he's doing this for me, for us. MAYBE, he'll love me the way I love him.

Fuck, I want to cry.

I want to leave the world behind.

I want to go.

But I want to believe.

I just don't know what to believe.

And I want to give it my all.

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Thank you for the support. I just want to inform you that I am using this medium ( English Language) for the story.

I'm sorry but I can't update the other story anymore, but one thing is for sure, I want to finish this story.

Thank you, Lovelots.