Giving It My All

Okayy?

I woke up. That's it.

I checked my phone to see what day it is.

' 7:00 am'

' August 5, xxxx '

Oh, it's the 5th.

Wait, what?!

It's August 5! I can't believe I forgot its my first day in college. Fuck. I need to go. My first class starts at 7:30. Shit.

I ran towards the bathroom door, then I remember I still love him. Yiee, just kidding.

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I finished preparing at 7:15. Whoo, that was close.

" Manang, why didn't you woke me up po? I almost forgot it's my first day. Geez, I can't believe myself. " I'm actually complaining while going downstairs. " Where's kuya, by the way? I don't know how to go to the school po, ughh, this is so stressful. " I just kept on complaining until I saw him, shit?

Sam is actually here, wow.

" Are you done? Let's go. " he said then stood up and started walking.

Okay? What am I supposed to do? And again, where the hell is Kuya Rile?!

Even though I'm confused, I walk after him.

" Where's Kuya? "

" Football practice. " he simply answered.

I smiled at the sound of his voice.

" Why are you here? " I asked, silently hoping that maybe he's worried.

" Hmm, the bastard asked me. And I need to pick Cindy up too, so why not? " he said then shrugged.

Ouch? I should've expected that.

" Oh. " I awkwardly said then he looked at me.

Maybe I'll be happier if my fantasies will come true.

I just smiled painfully. But yeah, he smiled back like he can't see the pain I'm hiding all these years. Why would he anyway? He don't care.

I managed to arrived at his car without crying. Whoa, great job Euris.

I went to the shotgun like usual, but I guess its not the usual anymore, she's there.

" Oh! Sorry. " I apologized and bowed. Okay, did I just saw that?

I turned around then closed the door, I sighed.

Too much for my first day.

I went to the backseat cause I've got no choice.

" I'm sorry you waited, Euris is a bit late. " he apologized. He actually apologized for me.

" Tsk, it's nothing. I understand. " she said then kissed him in front of me.

I tried to calm down.

" I'm Cindy, by the way. " she said then turned. I smiled.

" It's nice meeting you. Euris. " I said then forced myself to smile more. We shook hands.

It's soft.

I looked at my hands then saw the callouses in my fingers. I never actually been ashamed of my callouses before because it shows how I love guitar and music, but I guess he's really a special case.

" Let's go? " he asked not on us, but her then started driving.

I want to get out, it's suffocating.

" We should eat there next time, my friends said the food is really good. " Cindy said then pointed at a Korean Restaurant.

" Do you want it there? Sure. " Sam said then smiled warmly at her, my world stopped.

He's showing the affection I want from him to the person in front of me.

I can't take it anymore.

I can't breathe.

Oh my god, I need to get out of here.

I looked outside the car's window while they keep chatting. Then I saw the ice cream shop that I often went to.

" Stop the car. Stop the car, Sam. " I said hurriedly then tried to open the door while the car is still moving but it was locked. " Sam! " I tried not to shout okay, but I just can't take it anymore. I need to get out of here fast, I need ice cream.

" Hey, hey. Chill. " Sam said then stopped the car in front of the ice cream parlor. " What? " he said then looked at me, irritated. I looked at him for a second then decided to open the door, it was now unlocked.

" I need to buy something, go to the school without me. " I calmly said then closed the door. I breathe.

It's so loud.

I can't hear anything.

It's so hot.

There's too many people.

I can't understand a single thing anymore.

Fuck.

My tears fell and it's frustrating. I'm tired,so fucking tired. I walked.

I just kept walking until I entered the ice cream parlor. I walk to the corner but I bumped into someone, or rather a group.

" Sorry. " and then I walked again.

Fuck this life. But I still have ice cream, I ordered.

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Hey you guys, that's it for chapter three. Hope you like it!

Bye, lovelots.