Giving It My All

Being Broken Is Cool

Waking up is not hard thing, but when you know there's another fucking day full of pain, it is.

I woke up with a headache. Fucking hangover. Now I need to get out of my room again to get some food, I'm hungry.

I heard some voices when I'm walking down the house' hallway.

Maybe some maids talking loud?

I just shrugged the thought away.

But, when I passed the living room, I saw my greatest nightmare.

" Hey princess! " Kuya Jake greeted.

Kuya: Older brother or a closed boy friend that is older than you.

I looked at them aimlessly. I can't process anything.

" Princess~" they said in unison.

Ugh, fucking bastards.

They laughed.

" Stop laughing. " ugh I'm embarrassed.

" You awake? " Kuya Mac teased.

" I said stop it. " I'm tomato.

" Hey, hey. Good morning to you too. " My brother sarcastically greeted too.

" Tsk, morning. " aish, why do we have to fight. I'm guilty.

Luis Ares Riley Lopez, my older brother, 20 years of age, notices that I've been extra down. And one night, we had a heart to heart talk. He asks me why, or rather who made me sad, and of course I'm not telling that TO HIM. Just no way. I don't want to destroy their friendship.

I can't say it's him.

That's why he's angry. And I don't know what to do. Maybe I do, but I am not going to do that. I believe I can move on.

Or maybe I can't.

Anyway, I am now sitting with them. Including him.

My brother is a varsity player. Football specifically, and his teammates are here. Like the usual.

He's with Kuya Jake, Kuya Mac and Macky, they are twins, and him.

Samuel Luis Villaroz

The source of my pain.

There's food in the living room's table; donuts, cakes, cupcakes bread, coffee etc.

they just love sweets.

I ate while they are talking.

" How's you and your girl? " Kuya Macky opened up the topic. Here we go again.

" Hmm... " he just smiled. He's happy.

You're happy? I'm not.

" Wooahh, nice one by the way. She's really beautiful and kind. Nice pick. " Kuya Jake complimented.

tsk, i'm better.

" She is, she is. I am so lucky. " he said then smiled.

Okay, that hurts.

" HAHAHA, just be sure you won't hurt her. She's a close friend you know. " Kuya Mac advice and he said he won't.

Yeah right, I think I'm the one who's gonna do that.

Out of frustration, I ate all the food I can eat, and they looked at me weirdly.

" I'm hungry. "

" O-okay. "

No, I'm not. I want to go, like right now. But fuck all the coincidences there, they want to know ME.