the idea of you

chapter 4

They walked into Addy's room

A: sooo Caymans coming soon

B: okay

J: cool

A: okay so what did you need help on?

J: oh uh- t-this?

*About 5 mins later there was a knock at the door addy went downstairs to get it and it was Cayman

C: so what was the plan?

A: your here so I can get Benji and jeyjey alone you know? Like I think they like eachother and my two bestfriends well my cousin and bestfriend eeeek

C: okay okay let's go

They walked upstairs

A: okayy me and cayman are gonna go so you guys can like know eachother and whatever sooo have fun

J: ad-

B: sooo do you wanna go to my room?

J: okay

They walked into Benji's room Benji sat on the bed and motioned jey to sit next to him

J: w- what was it like in Madrid?

B: it was fun also irritating at times

J: how?

B: it's just how everyone would see me as "famous" and people would only wanna date me or be friends with me for that reason

J: oh, who is that?

B: oh those are my friends they are really amazing literally the only people who could care less if I was "famous"

J: having fans is really hard sometimes especially seeing them in public like yeah, its nice to meet them it's fun it's just I get nervous

B: I know what you mean, what's your instagram?

J: oh j-jeyjey gardi

B: okay

Benji follows jey and jey followed him back

J: your pics aren't that bad

B:oh thanks yours are nice too

J: thanks

*Time skip they talk blablabla and jey has to go home*

J: okay bye Benji it was nice getting to know you

B: you too, see you tomorrow

Benji goes back up to his room and closes the door

Benji's pov: I put on cliche by mxmtoon I don't know it was just a song for how I'm feeling right now? I mean fuck what is happening.. Benji your not gay your not- I'm gonna just talk to shinta

Benji: shinta.

Shinta: how was it?

Benji: literally so cute like what the fuck do I do I can't even handle this and I barely known him for a day

Benji: shit not him or ugh whatever

Shinta: FINALLY

Benji: what do you mean "fiNaLLy"

Shinta: you finally like someone

Benji: no I don't I refuse to admit it I literally do not like a boy

Shinta: so it is a him????

Benji: ugh yes I'm gonna talk to addy about this bye I'll talk to you later

Shinta: okay bye
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I decided to tweet real quick

Benjikrol: my head is literally gonna explode now I know what people mean by how it literally hurts to like someone

I got in the shower my thoughts were everywhere I literally have to get rid of this crush before I snap I don't want to but I'm probably just going to distance myself from him which will be hard

The next day~

Benji got ready and started to walk with addy

A: hey what's wrong

B: uh- i- fuck it it's Jorge I literally feel like I'm gonna explode tell him I'm sorry for what's gonna happen

A: what do you mean?

B: I'm gonna distance myself from him for like a week?

A: you are dumb but okay just ugh you won't last

B: whatever

*Time skip to a week later cus I'm bad @ this*

Jorge's pov: when I got home I felt dead I don't know if it was that the only person I wanted to hang around wasn't even talking to me like he didn't even know me I was sad and mad and I was overthinking like I'm too ugly for him he probably doesn't even like me ugh I just pulled the sheets over my head and cried... Why? I don't know I'm dumb I even told myself I wasn't gonna fall but I feel and when I fell I fell hard, harder then I've fallen my phone was going off but I didn't pay attention to it I threw it and then someone said hello fuck I answered it it was...

Tbc~

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