Andrea Russet's Sister

2

The doctors just finished up the chemo and I was throwing up all over the place. I felt like diarrhea and... idk I felt like shit. Kian and Andrea were talking and Hayes was sitting on the bed talking to me.

"Babe, I love you..." he said, his eyes tearing up.

"Don't cry" I said.

They shaved off all I my hair and I hated it. He hated it. It wasn't fair. God none of this is fair and some day no one will know what the word cancer means because a savior will be born on this earth and cure cancer for good. One day. It scared me, just the thought of cancer.

But what scared me the most was that my lungs could fail me at any moment and that will be the end.

I can't imagine what Andrea will do. Or anyone for that matter.

The doctor said I could leave and Andrea took me home in her own car because she wanted to be alone with me.

"Hey B" she said, staying strong.

"Yeah?" I asked, expecting the worst.

"The doctor said... he said that you might not make it through the year." she choked it out. She was now sobbing with me and holding my hand. "Fuck cancer fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck" I said. It was silent for a minute. Andrea finally talks.

"But my point was, that you should live in the moment, like it's you're last day." She said.

I take deep breath and we walk into the hair salon to check out wigs. I decided on an ombré wig just because I wanted a change. We checked out and I tried I the wig. We got a special adhesive thingy so that it would stay on. I would take it off at night, but that's it.

•at home•

We got home and it was late. I went upstairs with Hayes since everyone was sleeping over. I said that the chemo was making me feel sick so I didn't have to stay down there. I texted Andrea to tell everyone that I might not make it. I told Hayes and he just cried on my shoulder for a few minutes. I told him to forget it and just live in the moment. So that's what we did. Hayes and I made our way up into my room. "I like your wig, but you can take it off" he said. I took it off and laid down on the bed.

Hayes looked mad. "Babe what's up?" I asked. "I wanted to live my last moment with you. have kids together, get married. I wanted you." He said, sniffling. "We can still get married and have kids." I said. He smiled at me and I knew that I wasn't helping. "We might need to wait on the marriage thing but we don't have to wait on the kids..." I said smiling. He nodded and I quickly changed into spandex and a sorts bra. I'm not going to get into detail, but basically I'm not a virgin anymore.

Authors note:

I'm not very satisfied with this chapter but it's kind of needed just to fill you in. I'm rly tired so sry if it's like choppy and all over the place but yeah peace out I'm going to sleep now.