Don't Call Me Agassi Anymore!

Consequences part 1

8 months later

LISA'S POV

I walked in to the room. My Agassi's room. The same room. The same path. The same smell. The same girl.

Hugging some man. Hugging a man. My blood boiled.  She lift her head up and looked at me. She was smiling.  That gunmy smile I always wanted to see. That killer smile. She dropped her smile when she saw me. She broke the hug from the man. And now she was scared. She was fucking scared of me. She backed off on her bed until she hit the headrest.  I walked towards her. She was so vulnerable.  Oh I fucking hate to see her like this.

Shit. I know my eyes were teary. I know the tears were flowing down on my cheeks. I was grittingy teeth not to sob.

I made her like this? Now did I?

Fuck that's what Mr Kim told me. That she was not sane after I left her. What the fuck. The least thing I wanted for her. Not the least thing, I never thought of seeing her like this. Never.

The man that she was hugging tapped my shoulder signaling to come out to talk.

Now who the fuck was he..

I went out.

Doc- Hello Lisa, Lalisa Manoban,  I am Kim Hanbin. Jennie's doctor.

Oh so you were the doctor. I was somewhat relieved.  I know it wasn't my place to influence the people in Jennie's life. I was the one who left her to fo insane.

Lis- Oh hello doctor.  Um I.. I

Shit I was stucked.  I don't know what to say. I looked down and I know I was crying. Shit.

Lis- I am sorry doc. Just give me some time. I ll be back. I just want to see her.

Doc- no worries Lisa. But Jennie now thinks I am Lisa. I will explain later. She is confused.  I am glad you are back. I hope things will be all right again.

What the fuck? I didn't get the shit he was saying. Oh god I am going insane too. Shit my poor Agassi.  Shit shit.

I stormed in to the room. She was there in the corner of the bed trapped her knees in to her arms and her face was hidden in them.

She looked at me again. Frightened. 

I couldn't think what's right and what's wrong.  I stormed towards her. I climbed on to the bed and crawled towards her. I picked her in my arms like I used to do.

She started crying. But she had no strength to fight me. She was too weak.

Jen- who... w.. who are you?

Lis- shhhhhh.... shhhh.... it's me Agassi..

Jen- who.?

I made her sit on my lap facing me. I looked in to her eyes.

Lis- Don't you know me Agassi?

I asked her. .my voice was cracking. I can't believe what have I done. To this beatuful soul. To my baby. I could kill my self. 

Jen- I don't know you.

That was it. That killed me. I leaned on to her and rested my head on her chest. Listening to her heart beat. She must have heard me sobbing. She caressed my hair, may be she was upset to see someone crying.

I lifted my head to face her. She was crying too. But her eyes were having the same question, who are you?

I kissed her tears. She closed her eyes and let me do it without protesting. 

Lis- you are mine!

Jen-  no.. NOOO. NO. i am Lisa's. 

She shoved me back off and sat on the bed.

Jen- Go away. Please Go.

Fuck. This hurts.

I heard the doctor walking in, may be he heard Jennie shouting at me. As soon as she saw the doctor she ran to her.

Jen- Lisaaaaaa Lisa.. lisaa. Please. Don't ever leave me alone.  She is scary. 

She clings on to the doctor.  Pointing me. What on earth have I done to have this heart break?  All I did was, leaving the love of my life beside for her to have a perfect life, with a perfect man.

She is a princess. And I was a pawn. She deserves a prince. Was it a bad thing to wish only the best for her.? Why god why? Fuck.

I walked out of the room. Mr. Kim had asked to arrange my old room. I locked my door. And cried.

I was lost when I left the mansion 8 months ago. I had no specific place to go. I didn't wanted to go back to Thailand either. I went to Chaesoo's and stayed there for about month. I had my savings.  And I spent alot on drinking. Like wasted my self every day. I am a cold hearted person. That's what I show the world.  And that's what I believed.  But I had to leave Jennie beside just to realise my self of that I am just a coward pussy.

I could have stayed there and claim my love. Or I could simply have escaped with her.
But I just chose to run away. Run away from her. run away from the only girl that my heart always longed for. The only girl that I always wanted to protect to. The only girl that I wanted to see every day. I have never being patient around a girl like I was around her.

If I need a girl,  getting in to a girls pants was the easiest thing for me. But with Jennie,  I always wanted to respect her. Protect her. I know she is my employer's duaghter. My subject to protect.  But still, it was my heart that made me do things that I normally don't do. 

I left Chaesoo's after about a month and decided to go to country side. May be nature would help me. I didn't bid my good byes to Chaesoo either. I ran away from them too. I was welcomed by an old farming couple and they treated me like there awn child. We had no reception.  So no one  would ever find me.  I helped them in every possible way. So they treated me so well that I was slowly able to calm my self. The old man had a drink with me every night. Not hard english liquor.  Just fresh rice wine.

We became closer, and I was glad that I was able to share my story with them. They didn't understand how much pain I was in. But it was a little comfort to know that you could talk to someone. 

A little while after I met a small girl, Ella. A daughter of  a native family. And guess what, my slowly relaxed life was a total mess again.

That kid just looked like Jennie.  A smaller version of my girl.  A smaller kitten.  And fuck.