(5/6)
by the middle of the day, chan got hungry so they went downstairs to eat fruit and saw no one was around, nearly everyone was still pretty shocked and sad because of the incident from the morning
they saw that only mingyu and wonwoo were downstairs and then looked at each other awkwardly since the two were kissing
jeonghan just coughed to let them know they were there making the other two flinch quickly and stop kissing as they cleared their throats and acted as if they had just been talking
jeonghan and chan kept on talking about themselves and getting to know each other even more and the younger seemed to be very comfortable with him, although he was acting a bit nervous, after that, they went upstairs and chan took a short nap while hugging jeonghan tightly who was just lost in thought
then, dinner time came, everyone had eaten at different times and jeonghan realized that mingyu's room was apparently beside his since they both overheard a conversation between him and wonwoo when chan has just woken up
mingyu had apparently already confessed he was a trained assassin since wonwoo seemed to already know and was asking questions about it, but the younger mentioned that he wasn't planning on killing anyone anymore because he was falling in love with him and would find a way to escape the place with him
they waited until it was late to go downstairs and have dinner, jeonghan cooked in the best way he could, and when everything was finally ready, they both sat down on the table and started eating
jeonghan was incredibly nervous and still doubting what he was going to do next but got distracted by chan's smile when he tasted the food and strated munching down
"this is very good" he said with his mouth full "i always wished i could go to a restaurant and order something like this, but this is just how i imagined it would taste like" he continued
as they continued talking, chan suddenly stopped smiling "you know, i keep thinking of hansol and seungkwan's note, how they said they were unlucky, how we all were unlucky to be born in this life" he said
jeonghan nodded "i guess we are, i had never thought about it before, but i guess that i could've had a life in which i had a choice, a choice to be myself" he replied and then turned to see a hidden camera and showed his middle finger knowing his parents were watching
"why don't we make a promise?" chan asked
jeonghan raised an eyebrow waiting for him to continue so he did "as seungkwan and hansol, let's promise to meet each other in the next life again" he said
the older nodded with a slight smile "i promise that no matter what, i'll find you in our next life and have the life we could've had outside here"
chan agreed and they both pinky promised with a smile, when they were done with the food, jeonghan sighed with shaky breath and gulped, he had never been so nervous before killing someone
with shaky hands, he stood up and walked towards the kitchen where chan couldn't see him, he grabbed two big glasses and poured wine in them, adding poison in one
he walked over to the table feeling his heart start beating like crazy and put the glass with poison in front of chan and the other one in front of him
"wine? but aren't we minors?" the younger asked
jeonghan just chuckled slightly "well, it's not like we'll live to be adults, right? this is as old as we'll ever be" he said "plus, i wanted to make a toast, to this unlucky life and in hope for a better one next time"
chan nodded and looked at the glass nervously, he grabbed it and lifted it up "thank you for being the first person to show me love" he said with a sad smile
jeonghan could feel his chest hurt from his heart racing and pain but nodded as he lifted up his glass "thank you for still being the greatest human in this earth even after everything you have gone through" he said
they clinked their glasses and chugged down their wine, just seconds after, chan bursted out laughing with a disgusted expression "that was seriously disgusting, i thought wine tasted good" he giggled
jeonghan giggled back with a sad smile just waiting for the poison to kick in, chan finally stopped laughing and then started getting teary eyed
"you're the best person i've ever met" the older said and then started wondering why chan looked like he was about to cry
they said nothing for a couple of seconds until chan hissed in pain and tried to stand up from his chair but fell to the floor
jeonghan immediately stood up and walked over to him quickly but saw that chan was already crying, he thought it was because of the pain from the poison already hitting in but he wasn't sure on what to say
"if you're wondering, i'm not crying because it hurts yet, i mean, it does hurt but i'm crying because i'm happy, and partly, scared" the younger explained
"what?" the other asked
"i know you poisoned me, i could tell you were planning on killing me when i was crying earlier because of the look on your face and i saw when you put the poison in my glass, thank you so much, you know i couldn't possibly live in such a sick game without my spirit dying or forgetting who i am" he said
jeonghan gulped guiltily "i'm so sorry" he said and hugged chan
they broke the hug after a few seconds and chan started crying harder as some of the color of his skin started leaving his body and his lips started getting chapped
he rested his head on jeonghan's lap as he cleared his throat "i really hope we can meet in the next life and that we're lucky this time" he said with his voice cracking
for the first time in his life that he could remember, jeonghan felt his eyes watering "i love you" he said genuinely for the first time ever and gulped
chan smiled sweetly as he cried and coughed in pain "i love you too" he said as he started losing consciousness
jeonghan started crying and played with his hair as he saw the younger's eyes start losing focus
"jeonghan" chan said in almost a whisper
the older cleared his throat already crying "yes?" he replied
"maybe in another life i could've been an idol, right?" he asked nostalgically
jeonghan choked up in his tears and sniffed "yes chan, the greatest of them all" he said as he wiped his tears
chan smiled very lightly already starting to close his eyes and with his last breath, he whispered "that would've been nice" before finally letting his body relax and closing his eyes completely and forever
at last, dying
jeonghan realized he was dead and screamed without making any sound as he started sobbing and hugging the younger's body tightly while shaking
"this world didn't deserve you" he whispered while sobbing
