hidden behind concrete and tiles,
is the evidence of my ruin.
these walls keep me steady,
when my knees can no longer hold me up.
when the tears that
fall from my eyes
fall too quick, too heavy
for my breaking heart to handle.
i hide behind smiles and hugs,
but these four walls,
hold the secrets of my heart
when i can no longer keep them.
when my tears can no longer be held back
when they fall and fall,
till i drown in them completely,
the way i drown
in my love for you.
the love that kept me afloat
in the ocean of my anguished heart
but now,
i'm drowning in the memory of your love;
your touch, your smile,
the way our lips would meet,
like waves crashing against each other,
fiercely and passionately,
till we were one.
but that is all it is.
a memory.
ruined, corrupted,
a love tainted by pain.
every night
my phone reads 11:11
and every night,
my wish is still you.
