Dangerous game (Ethma)

chapter three

Ethan's POV
I went back to my room and layed in bed thinking about what Emma told me earlier i really feel bad for her she's young and already struggling with depression and has frequent mental breakdowns people who hate on her so easily and act so tough behing their screen don't see her in the state i do when she cries her eyes out and falls apart they don't see the impact of their mean comments about her without even knowing her, she puts so much effort into her videos and she tries to be herself and treat her fans as her friends she always says that she wants people watching her videos to feel like they are hanging out with her and that's why she opens herself like she does which allows a lot of people to criticize many aspects of her personality just based on a judgment or when they can't take her sense of humour or don't get her jokes, i just feel sad to see her like this as her best friend i know she's not very much herself lately and i hope she gets better soon.

Three months later..

Emma's POV
I woke up feeling so good today not for any obvious reason but i still like it, i started my day with coffee and some hard boiled eggs, next thing on my list was working out i haven't for a long time but why not get back at it since it always made me feel good and improved my mood.
After working out i took a shower and applied some facial mask, you heard that right i'm all about self love and care today, i removed the mask straightened my hair and called the nail salon i usually go to to see if i could find a spot today and luckily there was, i haven't had my nails done for a while and i kind of miss it.
« Aww your nails look so pretty ».
« Thanks Olivia, should we go grab lunch ? ».
« Yes please i'm starving ! ».
I haven't seen Olivia in three days which is long enough for me to really miss her so last night we made plans to meet over lunch and hang out a bit.
O « you look rather happy today spill the tea »
Em «  girl there's no tea to spill i just woke up feeling genuinely in a good mood which hasn't happened for ages ».
O «  i can see that and i'm really happy to see you like this Em you had too much bad days the past few months ».
Em «  yea i'm really lucky that you guys were there for me i don't think i would have been able to make it, at some point i thought i was gonna give everything up and go back to San Francisco ».
O «  that's what friends are for, if you should be greatful to anyone more than all of us it's to Ethan he never left your side and basically ditched his own twin brother to be with you when the rest of us couldn’t ».
Em « i don't know what i would have done without him he's such a great friend ».
O «  oh emma i know you have feelings for the guy and it must be hard enough that the whole world ships you both like crazy ».
Em «  i learned to ignore my feelings we're too deep in the friend zone and there's way too much attention on us, if we look at eachother we're in love and if we touch we are dating, Grayson and James are very annoyed by this while Ethan and i both try to just ignore it and act as if we don't care but i know him and i can see it pisses him off ».
O «  i donno Em sometimes other people can see what you can't, you guys have something special your bond is amazing friends or not eyes don't lie both of you look at eachother some type of way.. ».
I didn't let her finish i didn't want to hear it because it scared me, i'm not oblivious of what all people say and i'm guilty of watching edits fans make of us and wish deep within me all that was true but i know it's not, having a crush on someone but being bestfriends with them is so hard let alone being shipped with them by millions of people..
Em « Olivia please not you too ! You know none of that is true he's nice to me because he's my closest friend and because he always knew i was in his lane he doesn’t see me like that ».
O «  i'm sorry em i didn’t mean it like that but stop saying stupid shit he's not nice to you because you're in his lane ! That makes no sense and i was talking about the way he looks at you and his behaviour towards you in general, i'm not telling you to believe anything i'm just saying people might see something both of you can't ».