Dangerous game (Ethma)

chapter thirteen

Emma's POV

I slept most of the flight because i was already super tired to the point of sleeping on Ethan's shoulder without even realising it, god i hope i didn't drool on him that would be so damn embarrassing.

As soon as we landed mom's friend came pick us up and we were home in no time, god it feels good to be home it brings so much memories back, you would think i hated going back home because i barely came to visit ever since i moved to LA but the truth is I do miss home and i like coming back here, it's just the circumstances that made me move in the first place frightened me so much that i had a phobia coming back here for a while till mom moved from our old house.

I texted both boys to let them know i got home safe then tossed my phone on my bed and went to take a shower i needed the hot water running on my soar body to relax my tense muscles and to clear my foggy mind i was still thinking about what happened few hours ago in James' house and now that i think of it i feel really silly i know he wasn't the nicest but i overreacted and the guys must all think i'm a drama queen, tomorrow i'll probably call James and try to make things right with him i don't want to be the one causing tension in our friend group just because my feelings for ethan are overwhelming me lately and all these rumours of us dating are not helping i mean the perfect man for me is right in front of me most of the time and we're so close but yet he's not mine and he doesn't even see me like that and thousands of people out there think we are together and actually call me luck and envy me but we're not even close to that ! It makes me so frustrated and sorry for myself. I have to stop thinking about this and just go to bed.

Ethan's POV

Emma went to San Francisco few days ago already and we've tried to keep in touch i heard from her that she and James talked and cleared the misunderstanding that happened the night she was leaving and i'm relieved to hear that, truth is i talked to James too two days after she left when we were all hanging out at our house and eating pizza, i told him that Emma and i are just getting closer by the minute but only as bestfriends and nothing more i also made sure to clarify for him that we are not flirting for the camera and that he shouldn't be concerned about us catching feelings because we both value our friendship , i know i wasn't saying the entire truth but i said the logical one the one that should be happening and that shall happen , James said the same thing about Emma struggling to burry her crush on me and acting cool and be a good friend to me and he said that i shouldn't make it harder for her.

E « why the hell do you all keep saying that to me ? I'm not a monster ! It's not like i'm doing anything to hurt her i don't get it why you guys are being so protective over her while i'm literally the closest to her and none of you even cares as much as i do ! ».

J « E stop being dramatic as your friend i have to tell you my opinion i never said you are intentionally going to hurt her but eventually it can happen, she had a crush on you for a long time before she even met you and now she spends a lot of time around you and even though she acts very normal don't you think people shipping you together so much already makes it awkward for her ? I'm just saying E don't do things that might give her hope if you're not gonna feel the same way about her she's a great girl she only deserves to be happy ».

I'm confused more than ever after both James and Grayson warning me about hurting Emma and giving her false hope, what am i supposed to do ? I like being around her because we get along so well and it's always fun and we just hang out as normal casual friends do, we never act couply or anything like that i never cross my limits with her and same goes for her and lately i've been almost certain that she stopped seeing me anything more than her best friend, i don't care about what they say i'm not gonna distance myself from her again they don't understand the connection we have she's almost the female version of me and while other people might think i'm silly and judge me she gets me like no one would.

Emma's POV

Today i'm invited to a party at an old friend's house we used to go to highschool together but haven't seen eachother since then, when i met him few days ago while hanging with my friends at a coffee shop he was so happy to see me and insisted i came along with the rest of our friends to his party « it would be a great occasion to catch up and hang out like old times » he said, i didn't like going to parties it was never my cup of tea but i had nothing particular to do and having a bit of fun was not gonna harm anyone i needed some change in my life i had to same routine over and over again back in LA and while i'm here i should make the best of it, who knows i might meet more old accuintances.