Dear A,
Hey we haven't been talking for that long so I don't know why I'm writing this letter to you but I think I just need to get this out of me.
I think you're too good for me. You care, you ask how I'm doing, you listen to my bullshit, and you wanna know what's wrong. How can you tell when I'm upset? Its like I don't even say anything even when we text and automatically you ask "what's wrong?"
You're so amazing and it just feels to good to be true. It might be me being insecure. I mean you said I'm beautiful and I can't even look at myself in the mirror sometimes because as hard as I try I can't believe that.
You know when I came over, your body close to mine. I kept covering your eyes because they felt like they were looking into me. Actually understanding me and I couldn't take the fact that you might get to know me. That I might be vulnerable to you.
When we kissed, I felt like an idiot because I was too nervous to go into the kiss. I really like you but what do you think of me? What are we doing? Are we just too friends who are smashing? Are we dating? Do you like me the way I like you?
Don't get me wrong, you do care and give a shit but sometimes when I text you, you take years to respond, like are you busy? Do you not wanna talk? If you don't just tell me. I can't help but feel small compared to you
You're cute, handsome, caring, sweet, and do a lot. A few flaws but who gives a fuck? But the amount of flaws I have tips the scale, I want to be the same amount of amazing you are for me to you. I want you to think about me when you're bored or get as excited as I do when I open a message from you.
I want to go on dates, hang out, and just be good together because between all the kisses and the hugging and smashing, I like you dumbass. I truly do.
I haven't been this vulnerable to anyone and it's like how can you get to me? How can you get me or be there for me? Fuck. Can you just stop being such a perfect dude?
Sometimes I look at you and I'm honestly like is it too good to be true because the last dude, hurt me bad. The dude before that, used me for sexual. Dude before that sexually and physically abused me.
What am I supposed to do? When your here and I'm here and all I can think about is you but I don't think it's the same for you. Holy shit! Let me give you love and give me your love.
I like you.
I really fucking like you.
Best regards,
Your friend.
