Wandering

5:20:13:14

To Purple Heart,

The leaves slowly falling
Time is ticking
Hope is fading
And yet my heart is still aching

Singing your name
Remembering you in vain
Memories lingering
Of you and me loving

Why do you have to say goodbye?
When you don't want me to cry?
Why do you say hello?
When you want me to let go?

The sun shines, the sun sets
But time cannot reset
The pain that you left
To the girl who can't forget

Yours forever,
Yellow Heart

He reads the poem for the umpteenth time. It is one of  his favorite poems of her. Her suffering, her painful memories of him are forever kept inside the chambers of his heart. He vowed that until his last breath he will forever remember all the heartaches he gave her. He will torture himself until his last breath. That fateful day, while she was crying, she was begging him not to leave her. But he still turned his back and walked away.

Purple Heart,

How can I hate you
But still miss you?

How can I go on
But still want to hold on?

How can I smile
If my heart still want to cry?

How can I leave
If my heart still don't want to believe?

Yours forever,
Yellow Heart

It's been 5 years 20 days 13 hours 14 minutes since she left. He lost a part of him that he will never regain. Memories of her began to flood him. He can still remember her laughter. He can still remember her scent. She smells like a combination of jasmine, peony, carnation and rose and a small hint of apple. His bed still smells like her.

Purple Heart,

I wonder if you still think of me
Because I still do

I wonder if you still love me
Because I still do

I always will

Yours forever,
Yellow Heart

"Papa?" A tiny voice called him.

He turned around and saw his 5 year old daughter. "Yes my moon?" Why are you here? He asked the little girl who exactly looked like her mother.

" Why are you crying papa? Do you miss mama?" She lift her arms and asked him to carry her. She then gives small kisses on his face.

" Papa, when is mama coming back? I want her to come home so you will not be sad anymore. I don't want to see you cry papa"

He hold his breath and tried not to cry. " "Mama is not coming home my moon. God took mama away because He needed more angels in heaven". If you miss mama just talk to her. God gave her a celphone so she can hear you. He patiently explained to his daughter.

" I love Mama  but I love you more Papa" I want to see you everyday so don't go to heaven ok??

" I won't Yue because your Mama won't let me leave you. And as much as he wants to hold it in, the pain is so unbearable that a silent sob escape his mouth as drip of water fall down drop by drop from his eyes.

Purple Heart

I've been lost for a long time
Now I finally found my way back

5201314

I love you for a lifetime.

Yours forever
Yellow Heart

This was the last poem she made for him before she took her own life.

End.

A/N

Thank you really for taking time to read my short stories. My apologies if it doesn't meet your expectations. I'm new to this so I'm still learning. Please tell your mama that you love her 😊😊

P.s. 5201314 is a chinese number homopohone which means i love
You for a lifetime. If I'm wrong please do correct me. Thanks😁

As always
Sheilah