Already Gone - Kjmila

Unloving You

KJ had been in therapy for the last year, as he told himself he won't lose himself because of a broken heart, something that was inevitable for them both. Since he loved music, his doctor, Dr. Stella recommended him to write songs that really spoke to his situation, which he hated at first. It wasn't his style as he preferred rock and guitar solos, not slow, heartbreaking lyrics. It was what he got though, and he promised himself he would never let anyone hear what he wrote except his doctor. He was staying away from dating or any form of intimacy, his only friend was his hand in times of need.
The only problem KJ had was anytime he was getting himself off; she'd be in his head, and what suppose to be his time alone, his bliss, turned into sadness and anger. There was only solution and Stella did not agree and it was to have a fake girlfriend, someone who was there for him to think about and not the Camila Mendes. He never did it though, he was too scared of hurting someone the way he was hurting.

This growth helped him to get more into music, and his band had a gig at a music event in a week. They've been prepping for this day for months, however a change occurred and KJ decides he wanted to dial it down and actually sing the song he wrote. He was going to sing on national TV, in front of strangers about a girl they can't know about; but he felt that he needed this closure. His mates were the only ones he'd communicate with on a regular; they were acquainted with his feelings and would agree to anything that helped him heal.

On November 12th 2024, the AMA's were held and "Legend" stood on stage in a calm manner, something they were never known for as they were always hyper and in a groove. Today, they dialed it down in behavior and tunes, they did it for KJ. Slow piano music played as KJ took his seat ready to sing his feelings aloud.

"I wish I could unsay the words I said
I wish I could unsee the videos in my head
And if I, could untie the knot and
Unhear the promises that you forgot
Would I do that?
Would I?

I wish I could unkiss your dirty mouth
I wish I could unbite the peach and just spit it out
Girl, if I could undo the shame of
Ignoring my friends who told me "You're insane"
Would I do that?
Would I?

Unloving you
Is the hardest thing to do
Wish I could find a way to be unlove with you
Unloving you
You're all I wanna lose
But every night I'm closer to the bitter truth
I just can't unlove you
Maybe I can't unlove you"

As he concluded his song he looked at the camera with tears in his eyes, knowing she was watching, his baby, hoping she knows that this is it.

She watched and she knew.

Camila was on her sofa having a girl night with Rachel, Lili, Madelaine and Vanessa. After their gossiping they bunked on the couches and were watching the AMAs. Her heart skipped a beat seeing him on stage singing a song unfamiliar yet she knew it was about her. The way he sang she knew he was gone, she didn't want to admit it because it hurt, and that was when she understood how much she had hurt him. When did she become the monster? She was always it for him and now it's too late.
As he concluded, she had tears running down her face like a maniac, and boy she was gone when he looked directly at the camera, directly at her.
The rest of her night was spent with the girls trying to console her, but she knew it was over.

"Unloving you
You're all I wanna lose
But every night I'm closer to the bitter truth
I just can't unlove you
I just can't unlove you"

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A/N: I could never apologize to ya'll for breaking your hearts. This story was just conjured by my brain doing its thing while listening to sad songs. I just hope you all enjoy the angst, before the get their happy ending.

Also, my updates might be haywire because I'm going on a short vacation next week and my 2nd year of university starts soon :( 
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