(This part was already posted in my one-shots book)
(Please forgive me if this sucks, I'm very inexperienced in writing angst)
*There will be triggers in here such as depression & self-harm*
You and Uno had been together for 5 months. Your love was special, well you thought so at least.....Before he was smiling at you all the time, now it's a forced smile. He looked so happy and lively when he was with you, now he appears dead inside and looks like he wants you to leave him alone. His blue eyes were full of life and had a gleam when he looked at you, now they were dull and held nothing in them.
You were expecting this sooner or later. See you were depressed and you constantly felt like a burden to him, which meant constant apologies....sorry for being too loud...sorry for eating the wrong thing.....sorry for breathing.....sorry for doing anything...
Uno had been avoiding you a lot as well. He wouldn't talk to you, he would ignore you and talk to his friends. As of lately whenever you needed him, he always had an excuse to not do it. This started to really hurt you. You started thinking it was because you were draining him and that you would never be good enough for someone such as himself.
You didn't want to bug him and ask why he was doing this, so for a while, you didn't....but the urge only grew stronger and stronger each minute you saw him avoiding you, ignoring you, and pretending that you didn't even exist. So today, you were going to ask him.
"U-uno?" You ask him nervously.
"Oh, Y/N..... I can't talk right now...me and Jyugo are going to have a gaming tournament," He said with a forced smile and an almost annoyed tone.
"R-right, s-sorry for bothering you..." You weakly reply before walking back to your cell thinking about everything wrong with you and how much you hate yourself. Well, you tried at least.
"Y/N- chan? Are you alright?" You heard Nico ask you.
"Yes, I'm quite alright, thank you," You reply softly.
"In an anime, I watched the person would sew to take their mind off things.....you should try too!" He replies enthusiastically.
"Alright, I will thank you, Nico," You replied with a fake smile.
Nico walks away, and you couldn't help but wonder...
There are probably sharp things in there...
But will it be sharp enough?
No....wait....there is an exact-o knife...
I shouldn't though.....
You couldn't resist if you tried...
You need to, you haven't paid yet, you know you deserve it...
alright...let's do it
You snuck into the sewing room. After a few minuted of looking, you finally found it.
Bingo, now hurry before you're noticed
You quickly made your way back to your cell. No one was there... perfect. You walked into the cell bathroom and locked the door.
You quickly pulled out the exact-o knife from your pocket. You wasted no time pulling down your pants and quickly cutting your thigh deep and hard.
1 cut 'can't do anything right'
2 cut 'fuck up'
3 cut 'never good enough'
4 cut 'waste of space'
5 cut 'ugly'
6 cut 'unworthy of love'
7 cut 'can't make people happy'
8 cut 'so annoying'
9 cut 'slut'
10 cut 'whore'
11 cut 'disrespectful'
12 cut 'arrogant'
13 cut 'asshole'
14 cut 'bitch'
15 cut 'depressed garbage'
16 cut 'unwanted'
17 cut 'lonely whore'
18 cut 'fat'
19 cut 'leach'
20 cut 'ignorant'
and so forth until you reached 317 cuts filling up both of your thighs. You quickly cleaned up your cuts. When you walked out you saw Rock in sitting down in the cell.
"Y/N, are you doing okay?" He asked you with concern.
'NO, NO, NO I JUST WANT TO DIE...I CAN'T DO FUCKING ANYTHING RIGHT...I JUST CAN'T LIVE WITH MYSELF ANYMORE!!!'
"Yeah, I'm great, just a little tired," You reassure him.
"Okay, just making sure," He smiles.
You walk out the cell door, you could feel the pain as you walked, you only thought about how you went easy on yourself and should've been harsher. You were on your way to the roof, but stopped when you heard Uno talking to Jyugo about you in the game room.
"Why did you even ask her out?" Jyugo asked him.
"I think just because she's skinny and has a big bust," Uno replied lazily.
"I disagree, you were happy for a while," Jyugo answered.
"Well, at first she was fun and silly.....but then she started getting annoying," Uno replied with disgust in his voice.
"How so?" Jyugo asked.
"She apologies for literally everything and she wants me to be her fucking therapist basically all the damn time, and she is sooooo beyond draining because she's so sad all the time," Uno said with pure annoyance.
Your chest and stomach hurt at hearing this, it felt like everything inside of you was breaking all at once. Hot tears streamed down your face. As if that wasn't enough...
"You never loved her did you?" Jyugo asked.
"Not even in the slightest," Uno replied with a dead tone. "She could go kill herself for all I care," He replied with pure hatred in his voice.
Then, maybe I will... I have no reason to live anyway...
You rushed back to your cell, Rock was still in there....shit...you were in the doorway when you heard the worst thing possible...
*CODE BLACK: BUILDING 13 INMATE NO.22* (Code Black: Suicidal prisoner about to act)
NO NO NO NO NO, DAMN YOU MITSURU!!
Rock looked at you with wide eyes before running after you. you quickly slipped away and ran into the bathroom. Rock banged on the door and shouted things at you. you ignored them entirely as they meant nothing. You quickly pulled out the exact-o knife and quickly cut vertically into both of your wrists. It felt like it was on fire. Blood was gushing out of your wrist as you began to get dizzy.
Just then Hajime busted the door down, you fell to the floor as your vision got spottier. You saw Uno in the doorway with a smirk...that was the last thing you saw.
A/N: I'm sorry this was very dark, this was also not my best work. I'm trying not to make these so dark and sad....but I keep crossing its path. As always let me know what you thought. I'm also sorry for making Uno so mean...I love Uno so much..so this was hard to write.
Word Count: 1,093
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