Why Can't You Love Me?

Chapter 20

Seokjin's Pov

We are so dead. I am freaking out! I am so scared I'm shaking right now! Namjoon seems to notice it and hugs me. I should never have kissed Namjoon in the first place. I should have kept everything inside my head. If I had done that would things be different? Or would I have done the same sooner or later? I don't know but, that is life. You never know what would've happened if you made a different decision, you can only ever know what you did and you also have to suffer the consequences. Whether you like it or not.

Right now I made a decision. "Mr. Kim, I'm sorry for what I just did in front of you" I say and recive shocked looks from both Namjoon and Mr.Kim. "However, I am not sorry that I love your son and that I want him." I finish. From the corner of my eye I see Namjoon softly smiling. He kisses my forehead and hugs me in a protective way. "I agree with Jinnie, and I would also like to ask your permission to date Jin. It's just for formalities, because whether you accept or not I will date him." Joonie says. I look up to him so much... I would never be able to stand up to my father like this.

I gasp loudly as I remember. MY FATHER! Both Joonie and his father look at me questioningly but I ignore it as I start freaking out and saying incoherent words. Joonie also tries waving his hand in front of my eyes but I'm too focused on figuring out ways to not die. My dad and I have always been close. Mainly because my younger brother always had my mom's attention so, me and dad used to talk more. But the one thing my dad always told me was how he hated gays. He despised them. Once, when I was around 9 years old, we were going for a walk we saw a pair of gays kissing. My dad started shouting at them saying they were disgusting. At that time I didn't understand what it meant so I asked my dad. He explained to me that gays were disgusting and that they were against god.

Of course, I thought I shared the same opinion as my dad but, as time went by, I became a teacher in a religious school and fell for Namjoon. It's true that I still talk to my dad but barely ever since I have work. My dad always asks me if I found a girlfriend and also tells me to bring her to the family dinner if I ever get one. THAT'S IT!! The family dinner is the perfect time to tell my dad! I am brought back down to Earth as Joonie shouts my name. "Sorry, just thinking about something...." I tell him. I'm sure he still kinda curious bu for now, that's all I can tell him.

"YOU!" Joonie's father shouts. "Do you really love my son?" He asks me trying to control his anger. "I do" I say "That's what you'll be saying in our marriage" Joonie says out loud and his father looks at him in disgust. "HOW CAN YOU EVER SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT! I DIDN'T RAISE YOU LIKE THIS!" his father shouts completely loosing his temper. "It's true that YOU didn't teach me. But you never taught me anything anyway..." Joonie says with a hint of venom in his voice yet somehow, still calm as ever.

His father looks at him with a look of pure disgust. It's almost as if he forgot Joonie is his son and that he became his sworn enemy because he's gay. Why do gay people have to suffer this much?

Hoseok's Pov

I look at myself in the mirror and say "Ok, I'm good, I can do this" then I take a deep breath. Today, the Park family invited me for dinner with them. Mainly because I am a friend of the family and they actually consider me a part of it. They decided they wanted me to know the other sides of the family cousins and stuff, and I didn't have anything to do so I gladly agreed.

I leave my house, get in my car and start driving to the restaurant they picked. Once I got there I looked around trying to find the table. After a while I finally notice Mr. Park and his son Park Jimin and wave at them. They see me and wave back. When I reached the table I saw Jeon Jungkook who greeted me but I also saw a face I never thought I would see again. Nor did I want to. "Yoongi?" I ask questionably and notice he has his hand intertwined with another guy's hand. I look at the guy's face and notice it's Kim Taehyung. I never thought he of all people would ever date a guy. Especially Min Yoongi, the 'always drunk' fuckboy of Taegi university. I just push that whole story behind and greet the Park family, finally sitting down and starting a conversation. Though I can feel someone's eyes on me, presumably Yoongi. I recieve a text and look at my phone reading 'We need to talk, come outside to smoke a cigarette' from Yoongi. "Excuse me, I will go catch some air for a while" I excused myself seeing Yoongi also get up from the corner of my eye and grabbing a pack of cigarettes.

(A/N: I've finally managed to update! Sorry it took so long but I just couldn't find any more inspiration....)