Euphoria Imagines

Fez- "you know thats not true"

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Description: y/n suffers from drug addiction and Fez wants to help her.
Warnings: swearing and drug abuse.
*******************************************I was done. Thats all I thought as I made my way out the school building. All today had just been one huge shit show. Everything was just too much. I just needed something to forgot, and that thing was drugs.
I had started using drugs when I first started high school at the age of fourteen. I can remember the first time I used. It was at a party that Maddy had dragged me to at first I resisted but eventually gave in. The party was filled with people from my school and I remember just being this walking ball of nerves. I was so tightly wound, I sat in the corner of the room the majority of the night till a boy in the year above came over to me and Maddy.
"You two are freshman right?" Maddy nodded. "Have either of you ever done Cocaine?" The boy pulled a small clear plastic bag out his pocket, inside was a white powder.
"No" the two of us said at the same time.
"Well do you want to?" He held the packet up as the two of us stared at it.
"Fuck yeah" Maddy said confidently.
"I don't know Mads" the girl turned to look at me.
"Jesus! This will help you to lighten the fuck up" Maddy laughed as the boy the powder in the table in front of us before putting it into lines.
"Your friends right. This will make you feel the best" the boy smiled at me. I gave in. Unlike Maddy I didn't stop. I become addicted to whatever could give me that feeling of confidence and energy. It was like that for a while. I wouldn't say I used daily but more then my friends and those around me. Over the years of using I became friends with a drug dealer called Fez. Of course at the start that's all he was but the two of us became closer. The relationship stopped being just platonic, the two of us caught feelings for one another but we never really labelled whatever it was.
Over the last summer things had become weird between me and Fez due to my friend Rues overdose. Fez felt responsible in a way so I think he'd made it a personal thing to help me stay clean. Fez had stopped selling me any types of drugs and pretty much was always there for me if I needed someone to talk to or turn to instead of using but today I just couldn't I needed that something. And the only person that I could get anything off was Fez. I don't care what it takes to get it I just need it.

I made my way down the familiar roads, my headphones plugged in and volume of full blast. I couldn't stop thinking about everything that had happened today. It was just one thing after another from my argument with Maddy to Mrs Thomson being a bitch to me in her class. I know they may sound like stupid things to get upset about but being humiliated by your friend in front of your other friends and then by your teacher in front of your peers take a toll. I mean what do they think of me know? They probably think I'm stupid. That I'm no good. I looked down at the pavement as I carried on my walk. Insecurity and nerves taking over yet again. I wish I could be confident and not care what other people think about me. Dee down I wanted to be like Maddy, Cassie or Jules, they were all confident, sometimes I wondered how we were even friends. Sadly I'm not that way. I listen to what people say about me, I want to know what they think. Like I said drugs takes that away, even if it doesn't last long those moments are the best.
It didn't take me long to finally reach Fez's place. I quickly made my way towards Fez's door knocking on it. I took a step back from the door wrapping my arms round me. It didn't take Fez long to open the door.

"Y/n? I thought you wouldn't be round for another hour" Fez stepped back as I entered his house walking past him.
"Yeah well" I sighed. I made my way into the living room quickly surveying the rook to see if there we actually any drugs in sight, sadly there wasn't. Of course he wouldn't keep them in sight.
"What's wrong?" He questioned as he stood not far from me.
"I need some drugs" I crossed my arms looking down at the ground then back up.
"Na, you know I can't do that y/n" I rolled my eyes.
"Why? Your a fucking drug dealer right?" I raised my voice slightly.
"You've been clean for a few a while now, do you really want to throw that away?" I could tell that Fez cared but right now all I wanted, all I need was some drugs.
"Fez stop being a fucking asshole. I've got money I can pay you for them" Fez just shook his head. "For fucks sake Fez!" I yelled.
"I'm not selling you shit" I looked away from the boy taking a deep breath as tears started to fill my eyes, not out of sadness but out of anger. I was pissed. "You can calm the hell down" Fez took a step forward. I laughed shaking my head.
"Fez please" I tried to plead with him.
"No I'm sorry y/n I just can't" he looked down.
"Why can't you? Your my drug dealer it's what your meant to do" Fez looked up hurt written in his face.
"You know that's not true. I care for you y/n." He started walking towards me but I took a step back. "I don't want you to overdose like Rue, I don't want you to die. Because if you did I would never be able to forgive myself" I closed my eyes as my yet again they filled with tears, I don't know why. It wasn't sadness but a mixed feeling. I took a breath in as the tears began to roll down my cheeks. "Hey don't cry" Fez pulled me into a hug. Everything was just so complicated and I don't know how to deal with it. Fez held me closer rubbing his hand up and down my back as he rested his head on top of mine. "Let me help you" I just nodded as response.

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I hope you guys liked
Let me know your opinions.
Also I've never done drugs so I don't how correct I was.
I did see what drugs made you confident and cocaine was one that came up.
Also it's like 4 am when I'm writing this, so sorry if there's any mistakes
So yeah. I hope you enjoyed it.
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