Dad, December 13th, 2019
Where do i begin? You left us march 25 by your papers but we all knew when they found you days earlier you were gone. You had over dosed you had three different drugs in your body, you chose to dance one last time with your demons this time they drug you down with them. They finally claimed you after your long battle with your addictions.
I know we fought a lot but you still were my father, you were a part of me that i couldn't escape from. I still don't know how to feel, i don't know if i should be sad that your gone or angry. I don't know if i should be mad at you for letting get this far, or for being gone when i needed you most. Should i regret the shit i said and want to take it back or say worse things. You left me with a hurt brother at his teens and a baby brother who doesn't even know you and now wont. What do i tell my baby brother? Do i tell the truth or save him the pain of knowing about the addiction he father fought. You left two boys who really needed you to be there and sober. You also left the daughter who begged you to get better, who wanted better for you, who cared, i wanted my best friend back and now he is gone forever because he chose the drugs over his family. He missed my graduation shortly after he passed, Now he will miss my wedding, my kids being born, and me being successful in life.
Dad i miss you and im confused hurt and scared. I know we had it rough and i wish i could fix it but i cant.
Love, your daughter
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Letters To My Dad.
Fiksi UmumMy father was a addict who sadly lost his life due to his years of drug use. The letters I am writing are the things that I should have said while he was alive. This book is to help me mourn his passing and my way of couping with his death this is v...
