Stepping Stones

Sorry

They continued to look at me. I felt bad for saying the stuff I said. It was harsh. I don't hate them, they're my brothers for god sake. I walked over to them, Oreos in hand. I turned off the tv and stood I front of them. Pretty intimidating to be honest. "Look guys I'm sorry for what I've said, I guess I just didn't want to think of mum and dad like that. I now they're gone- I guess I don't know how to act" I admitted. I looked at the floor.

Zach stood up and wrapped his arms around me, the rest followed suit, but Tyler was still sat on his phone. "It's ok kid" Zach said kissing the top of my head. Maybe I can regain some relationship with them. "Can we watch a movie?" I asked. "Of course" Jason said.

We all went down to the movie room. "Tyler come one" I heard dean call Tyler. With a loud groan and huff he stood up. We watched so many films as kids together maybe that's where the relationship can begin. Having no family connection is unhealthy and I know that. But what's the point at the same time. Why should I put the effort in.

My conflicting thoughts were interrupted by noah asking what I wanted to watch. "I don't know?" I said plopping on a seat. "Genre?" He continued. "Well I'm a horror fiend but I dunno. What does everyone else think?" I asked. I chorus of yeahs and agreement noises came through. Noah scrolled through Netflix and amazon prime after a while we decided on hush.

"OPEN THE DAMN DOOR" I said exasperated at the fact that she couldn't hear/see her friend being killed not even 5 metres away from her. But then again. She was deaf. I had my head on James and my legs on Elliot. It was very comfy. The boys laughed at my comments while Tyler rolled his eyes "shut up" he continued. "Calm down princess" I sassed back. He rolled his eyes again and we looked back at the movie.

"That was amazing" I beamed as the last scene cuts out dramatically with police sirens. "I think that's my favourite movie" I gushed. It was amazing. "Yeah it was brilliant. Good choice monkey" zach rubbed my hair.
"Hey" I laughed, I missed all the old nicknames they gave me.

"I'm going to my room later losers. Brat" Tyler nodded at me as he left when he said brat, to which I rolled my eyes.

"Do we wanna hang by the pool today?" Elliot suggest. That made me tense. Pools are something I enjoy. But not when my arms are in this state and my body looks so fat all the time. A chorus of 'sure' 'yes ok' and 'cool' was heard. And I just got up and went to go figure something out.
"Sky you ok?" James asked getting the attention of my other brother "you look a bit pale" he continued. "No I'm fine. Just gonna go change." I gave a tight smile, and continued walking.

Raking through my draws I try and find something. Otherwise it'll look weird. I bring out a surfing long sleeved shirt and some surfing shorts to try cover my stretch marks, cellulite and fat. I hate it. I put a bikini on underneath those two and head downstairs. Today was sunny so we went to the outdoor pool.
I got there and shifted my weight uncomfortably. I had grabbed a towel from the cupboard next to the family bathroom.

"Long sleeves?" Tyler snorted.
"Ha ha ha fuck off. I got sunburnt when I was doing sport at school. Don't want to continue burning" I said sarcastically.
"And shorts! Going full 5 year old on holiday for the first time look." He continued.
"Shut up" was all I said and I dipped my feet into the water.

Suddenly Noah shoved me in to the pool no warning. "YOU SON OF A BITCH" I screamed coming up from the cool water. The rest of my brothers laughed. The rest of them got in and we splashed and paddled around for a bit. Yes Tyler didn't make any conversation or contact with me. But what's new.

After a couple of hours, we got tired of splashing around. And I started getting cold. We got out and wrapped the white towels around us. I looked down and saw I watered down drop of red run down my leg. Fuck.

I ran up the stairs to my room and locked the door. I went into the bathroom and turned the shower on.

I slowly peeled off of swimwear while the hot water prickled my skin. I brushed through my conditioned hair, while rinsing some of it out with the water. I washed the rest of the conditioner out, finishing my shower by washing my face.

Turning the water off, I went and got my bandages and gauzes, hopping up onto my counter, I carefully cleaned the re-opened cut, the scab had attached to the gauze which is why when I think I scraped it against the edge of the pool, it started to bleed, a lot.

I taped it up the keep the gauze in place, and wrapped the towel back around me. Walking into my closet I pulled out a onesie. I swear I'm obsessed with them. It was pretty thin, so it wasn't too much hassle with it being summer and the sun's kind of set so it a little colder.

I walked back downstairs after quickly raking a brush through my wet hair and putting it into a messy bun.
I saw the guys setting the table, the faint smell of chlorine indicating some had, obviously not bothered to shower yet.

"Hey guys" I grabbed some cups from the cupboard and put them in everyone's places. "You went off in a rush" Dean said stirring whatever was in the pot.
"Yeah, I really needed to pee, suddenly" I laughed a little.
"I'm drinking apple juice. For god sake" max whined.
"Oh yes. I'm sure that's the most gross thing you've heard ALL week" I rolled my eyes.

"You know I think I might've learnt how to cook!" Dean exclaimed, very proud of himself.
"And how exactly does that happen overnight?" I asked sitting down at my place.
"Well after the macaroni fiasco, I decided to look at some YouTube videos and read some recipes!" He said smiling while putting the spaghetti in the big dish.
"So after all this time of having shitty food all it took was for you to have a quick look through a recipe book and YouTube? Unbelievable" I scoffed shaking my head.
"Well at least you'll be eating nice food from now on" Zach said bringing over the pot.
"Ummm haven't tried it yet" I pointed my finger.
"Well then let's start quickly. I'm starving" James started dishing out the spaghetti.

I was a little skeptical but put some in my mouth. And you know what, it was actually good.
"You've dome well big bro. You can actually cook. See what can happen when you use your limited brain cells" I smiled at Dean. He smiled for a split second and the realisation hit. Lmao.
"Hey! You little shit" he said scowling.

I ate half of my meal and decided it was enough. Giving the rest to noah I sat drinking my lemonade.

After everyone had finished, I moved to sit on the bar stools, scrolling through Instagram I got bored and went to message Sophie on Snapchat.

"Hey Sophie's invited me to go to hers for a couple hours tomorrow, just a little heads up" I told my lazy brothers who were sat on the sofa. Jason just put his thumb up in response.

Today has been I good day, I thought to myself and smiled.